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Emotional purges are part of the herx, part of the detox. It's all "normal". You have to decide how much you can bear. If it gets to be too much, back off, self-care the heck out of yourself, rest. Make sure you're doing your detox routines. There should be a link here on the boards at the top.

We have all been there.

First off: Take a deep breath and calm down. This is only temporary. It will not last forever and you will get better.

I tell myself this when I start spiraling: Every day in every way I'm getting better and better.

I repeat it over and over. You gotta get tough. Don't let some dumb bacteria kill you. You can beat this. Many people have and you will too. You have a long road ahead and understand there will be bad days, but you can do it.

Stay strong and be good to yourself!!!

BTW, it's good to let all that emotional crap out. Just cry it out if you have to. Hit pillows. Scream. Boy, once I decided to ride the dark wave, I felt so much better. I cried and screamed and it helped.

It began as soon as I woke up this morning. Is that how you all know you're having a bad day or good day? Like if I feel like I wake up and feel somewhat rested that usually means I'm gonna have a good day. But days like today when I have to drag myself out of bed then that usually means I'm gonna have a bad day?

If this is a herx then I'm fine with that. I am ready to herx and I'm ready to feel better I just thought a herx was more like flu like symptoms.

I see. I didn't know that. It's just when I see people talking about herxing or read about it they say stuff like "if it's too bad go to the hospital" so it just has me confused a bit I guess. I was more tired today but I still managed to exercise and stuff but I have been on edge all day long. Full blown depression.

Redwhite&blue said...
I see. I didn't know that. It's just when I see people talking about herxing or read about it they say stuff like "if it's too bad go to the hospital" so it just has me confused a bit I guess. I was more tired today but I still managed to exercise and stuff but I have been on edge all day long. Full blown depression.

Hi RedWhite&blue I have the same symptoms. I think my lyme is mainly in my head bc my symptoms have mainly been psych. I have anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I dont label it as depression bc I dont feel sad about my life etc but the thoughts do not go away! sometimes I get clear days where I am ok then there are periods like now where literally from the moment I open my eyes in the morning I am fighting those thoughts. I know this is not me, I know I want to live but it's like a record that just keeps playing in my head. this past weekend I barely got out of bed, I was so emotional and my body was super fatigued. I guess it is depression but it's like being trapped in your head, I know who I am and that I love my life but I have these thoughts going through my head and that I wont get better. It's like a physical sensation, my head doesnt feel right. I get head pressure, weird feelings in my head. It's so hard to explain! I was a completely normal, healthy person and then my life just went over a cliff. I am hanging on everyday. I just keep telling myself that I need to survive this! It's so hard though and very scary when you dont feel like you can control yourself.
Just know that you are not alone.
I want to do a survey of other Lyme suffers who have suicidal thoughts. I dont think it's the typical I feel my life is worthless type of SI but like mine where you are fully aware that you want to live but have these thoughts that are constantly playing in the background.

If this would go away I would be fine. Mine also flare up when I herx (or at least I assume it's a herx) but the more I think about it, it seems like it happens in cycles on it's own.

Hang in there.

All day I have just laid around and have had thoughts and thoughts. I keep telling myself this is just part of the process but It's not working. I can't get off the internet wondering if this is indeed a herx or what it could be.

I read something that says "you herx when you're having a bad day". I AM HAVING A BAD DAY!

I can't get off the couch. I'm not in physical pain, I'm not hurting.. I just feel tired, I haven't said a word to anybody and I'm drained.

If I could 100% convince myself I am just herxing, I'm killing these awful things then I could push through!! But it's the constant thoughts that are running through my head for no reason that are telling me this isn't a herx. This is how I'm gonna feel for the rest of my life.