Mold sucks. It's real.
I just got back from a month in the Philippines, and I'm falling apart. My sinuses feel swollen and inflamed. I have so much brain fog, irritability, rage. A constant drip from my nose. It's no coincidence. It's official. I don't need testing, I don't need to see the mold. There's something in the air.
My health wasn't perfect over there. I feel I'm still dealing with Bartonella, at least, if not some of the others, but I felt much better than I do here. On top of that, there was a point where I forgot to pack most of my supplements when traveling to another island, and I didn't even notice the difference. I felt no better or worse. They weren't doing anything for me.
Also, I'm wondering if some of the unpleasant symptoms I experienced over there were my detoxing of mycotoxins. It was the unmasking, which is why I'm reacting so badly now that I've returned.
I need to get out of this house ASAP. I don't need a perfect dwelling, I'm convinced, just anywhere but here. There were a couple residences that were definitely mold-infested that set me off, but even some of the slightly musty ones, I felt so much better in than I do here. Hot, humid Philippines, Manila pollution, so much better than my house in nowhere, Iowa.
I used to think I needed to spend $800 a month on getting better, which is why I pushed myself through school to get into a decently-paying profession, but I feel like half of that being spent on rent instead would be more beneficial to my health.
My doctor was right: she can't get me better until I get rid of the mold.
I don't know if I'm ever gonna be 100%, and I don't even care, so long as it's a consistent, somewhat comfortable 70%, with lifelong maintenance.
I would leave, but I've nowhere to go, no money. I need to study to pass the NCLEX, so I can start working, but my brain ****ing hates life right now and I can't focus on learning. Man, I gotta do this. Just a couple paychecks and I'm so gone. I can't breathe. I'm burning up in an air conditioned home. It's only 70 degrees outside. I'm dying. LOL
I can do this. Catch me in a few months, guys.
Post Edited (NotQuiteAntonio) : 6/17/2018 7:41:15 AM (GMT-6)