Girlie said...
The Dude Abides said...
Girlie said...
I asked my hubby today if he wants to have an appt next time we fly to DC and start treating and he declined because someone needs to be making $$$ and he knows he may not be functional when he starts. He's waiting for me to get back to work....waiting...waiting.....waiting..........waiting................
Your husband is dealing with Lyme, too?!? Either I didn't know that or my mushy brain forgot.
I can see how, for some couples, that financial/employment situation could be not only stressful, but have a lot of emotion and conflicted feelings wrapped around all of that. I wish you both the best.Thanks Dude.
I haven't posted about
it much.....maybe a couple times awhile back.
The background: after I tested positive, my husband said one day "Remember that bullseye rash on my lower leg that I had many years ago? I took a photo of it."
... No I don't remember anything about
his rash...and the photo apparently is on a hard drive from one of our old computers - which he encrypted and doesn't know the password...I don't think he can even find the hard drive.
So he did an Igenex test when we were at my LLND appt in 2014 and it was IND - Bands 31 and 41. Did the epitope test and it was positive.
He is highly functioning - but is someone who will put up with stuff and just keep going....thyroid packed it in around 2013 but he has to play around with his med dosing to feel good. He splits his thyroid pills up into three doses -
I remember a few issues he had in the past and I now think it was Lyme flares.
One being a chronic fatigue episode that lasted for a few months. But, again...he always pushes through (he won the cup in a tennis tournament that summer...somehow...)
I feel some guilt (whether warranted or not) that I'm taking so long to treat....and I haven't pushed him to treat. I might be able to pursuade him to treat if I really tried...but I really don't like what that picture looks like. I'm not sure we would survive it as a couple.
he said he's seen how difficult it has been for me and how bad I've been some days - especially in the first year of treatment.... even tho I try to not burden him on a daily basis with constant chatter about
how I'm feeling, etc...and nonstop Lyme talk.
He's not ready to wake the sleeping lion....Oh wow Girlie! Thank you for sharing. That's great he is highly functioning. I think Lyme is so individual and based on everyone's immune system. Kind of like cancer. We all carry cancer cells and the immune system just keeps them at bay...but for some people the immune system isn't able to do that.
Yea I understand that guilt. I think about
it daily but the best we can do is take it a day at a time and keep focusing on treatment. I mean someone is going to come up with a cure. There are like 13 antibiotics in the pipeline in phase trials so one of them is going to have the answer...I have no doubt that we will all get better.