Just tired of life, morning anxiety has become too much

I've gotten what feels like a cortisol spike in mornings before for months. Then it subsides. It has been back and building, made worse in part, by my panic when a test shows an abnormality in another area.

The morning anxiety has gotten to the point of intolerable - and it's every morning. Was starting at about 7-8 am and now starts by 6 am. Kidney tests have fueled it to get worse as had protein in one 24-hour urine test and low GFR/high creatinine. I have been peeing 25 times a day for months.

Can't take this uncontrollable anxiety much more and worry about kidneys. Before I was better about saying "it has to be Lyme Disease." Even a long-term low GFR showing low kidney function didn't seem to concern LLMDs. But never had the protein. High blood pressure will not come down.

Can relate to those who get nervous thinking other health issues are involved. I can go there way too fast.

Not even a "poor me." Just so, so tired of worry about what tomorrow brings, and kidney testing is a slow process. Try to be positive, but worn down.

I'm sorry runningwild - that you're feeling so defeated.

Even with LLMD's - we often feel we're going it alone. We get the appointment once every month or two...or three...and we're in and out....and left to fend on our own.
- keeping it mostly inside our head...suffering silently.


Hang in there...and please keep coming here for support.

Hang in there running wild. I went through 8 yrs of panic attacks and thought they were a result of certain foods. The attacks finally stoped. The Lyme messes up our neurotransmitters. Once I stopped the prednisone, the panic attacks ceased. The food was never my problem...The Lyme is a Monstrous beast. I will pray for you.

Don

Tried the Holy Basil and read many good things about it. But I noticed I was going to pee even more (already 25-30 times a day) and then read HB can have you going to bathroom more.

Seems so many things cause symptoms. I'd go on BP medicine and have tried, but always have reactions to them. Lisinopril is good for both BP and kidneys. But by third day my BP and actually risen to 190/120. Had to go to ER (don't you love the ER?) because of aortic valve replacement two years ago. Since going off Lisinopril, it has come back down to normal high.

I sound like a hypochondriac, but I just have one of those systems that is hard to medicate. Also have tried naturals, but this time nothing is bringing it down.

Maybe it's all tied together. Then there's Lyme. I do not like being negative, but there right now.

Everyone on this site is appreciated.

low dose lithium orotate (the mineral in the health isle) is worth a try for anxiety. Have not read about side affects, but everything seems to have something.

Gosh I know how scary this could be! I often listen to this kind of thing to help me...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sKKubwN4vM

hi Runningwild!
i wonder if your morning anxiety is similar to what i would usually feel.
every morning - - it has decreased now .. but every morning i would get up to get ready for the day i would get intense anxiety - - start OVERSweating.. chest felt tight, and i had to go outside to feel cold fresh air.. this was also when it was in the negative degrees outside..

i have incorporated a lot of self care into my life, but also i have noticed a big difference ever since taking chinese skullcap.. i add it to my regimen, it comes in a tincture form..

what have you tried? Hang in there - - It WILL GET BETTER!

Thanks, all. Have tried most everything. There is, no doubt, I have developed health anxiety through years of Lyme. Have been told I could have lukemia and didn't. Have been told my cartilage is being destroyed, and wasn't. Have had Sweets Syndrome (you'll have to look it up) with big lesions on my body and didn't run into cancer. Now, it's kidney fear.

The anxiety, though, comes with a resurgence of Lyme or co infections. I've always thought it was adrenals, but now they are thinking kidneys. So I'm "out there" mentally, at times.

With the morning anxiety, if feels like an adrenal rush. No sweating, no tight chest... just a crazy feeling that runs through. Starts about 6-7 am, as mentioned, then goes until about 9 am. Then slowly gets little better.

I'd love to hear what others think because with me, only test results that improve help. That and small dose of clonazepam. It's the waiting on results that send me into space.

And Don Jr. - please don't feel the need to apologize for "preaching." You're not, and God is often the only one I can talk to. Don't want to put it on my kids, even though they are 23, 21 and 19. I coach college cross country and track, and being around the runners helps. Just trying not to lose my job.

You are all awesome!

My anxiety comes on as soon as I wake up - while I'm still in bed...so it's not like I'm even thinking of anything to be stressed about.

I hate that because I'm not prepared for it.

It used to wake me up a few times a night...but that has resolved.


I get some shivers when it happens, followed by light sweating. (used to be heavy sweating)

I'm not sure if I have just recently slammed down the infection that is causing this, and that's why it's improving...OR if my body is just slowly healing - brain/adrenals...etc and will continue to subside.

Mine is definitely physiological