Genuinely suicidal

I am so so sorry to hear that. Any help from various detox methods? infrared sauna? binders?

Other ideas in case you haven't tried, just throwing them out there: LDN, cbd oil, gabapentin, cymbalta...

Firstly, i understand your frustrations with things like the suicide hotline. I've seen a therapist for a year now because of feeling this way and some times i scream at her when she talks about getting into the right mental state when i'm in constant pain or fearing that i'm going to die because my heart is freaking out.

I would say try to hold on while you exhaust every treatment avenue. Antibiotics are not the only way, and there is medication to help somewhat from the pain like seberg already mentioned. Don't give up.

I cling to faith, when the suffering seems overwhelming it is my only comfort. I know some people have reservations against religion, but honestly for me it has been the only thing that has helped me cope.

Alexis,
I once suffered from unbearable pain, at times I wanted to cut my arms off to try and end the pain. There were people that suffered with the same illness that actually did cut off there feet and also ended their lives.

I am fortunate that I did not do those things,even though I was suffering horribly.

After over twenty years my pain went away. I had complex regional pain syndrome. Not sure why but its gone.
Life is an important gift. Our bodies are amazing and healing can happen even from the most horrific situations.

Please, I want you live and I want you to be able one day to have joy again.

Keep posting here and reach out to us. Maybe we can all figure out something that may help one step at a time.

Alexis-When I went through the worst of it I had opiates from major surgery or I don't know if I could have handled the pain. I very much understand.

My LLND just gave me a bottle of Kratom. I've read a lot of posts on Kratom on here in the past (you can do a site search by typing kratom in the google custom search box at the top of the page). Some of the posts contain a lot of really useful, helpful information. I was a bit leary to try the kratom as medical marijuana makes me feel worse. The kratom worked great. It broke a days long pain cycle. You can email me for the source I'm purchasing it from or you can choose on of the recommended options listed in the posts.

Hi Alexis just thinking of you and wondered how you are doing today.
If you get a chance let us know.

Take care

So sorry your having to go through this
If you happen to live in S.California, I might be able to help.

Or you can go to my previous posts and try out of the box treatments.

Hang in there, a permanet solution to what might be a temportay problem is not the answer. Just take it one day at a time and keep searching.

Sorry about the spelling, but don't have the time or energy to look up the proper spelling. Got to replace a gas line in a pick up truck. And it already pushing 100 degrees here.

God Bless Claude

Your computer can help getting out of a slump, to some extent. Like stupid funny stuff or nature? Best thing for "slummpy times" is a funny movie or wildlife / nature / travel videos on You tube. Just pretend your there. - And remember, you wont be like this forever.

Lyme certainly changes things. Life is about change and making lemons out of lemonade. Thats how our ancestors survived. Easier said than done, but it can be done.

Our lives are all different and consist of a different life view. Most have a view, dream, ect but sometimes it needs a little bending or re-thinking.

Lyme started to change my life plans as a young adult and finally did in midlife. I did accomplished a childhood dream, but realized I was unable to continue/ live my dream. Ive accepted it as my past and acknowledge that my interests in what to do forward with my life can change as I get older since there is not enough time or money to do everything even if I was healthy the entire time.

In my early 50's, Ive already outlived some non-lymies from my past, I do miss and will never forget them, wish they were still around. I'm still alive,... If our souls live on..they might be envious, who knows.

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