Depersonalization and brainfog

Hello everyone since my first episode of depersonalization alot has changed. I don't feel like my self at all it feels like my mind is blocked and I can hardly recall what has happened in my entirely life it's like my memory is erasing it self and for those memories that I can recall they seem so distant like it happened centuries ago. I hardly recall my "yesterday "memory and it's very scary it feels like my brain is in pressure and I have alot of other weird unexplainable symptoms alot of weird sensations in my brain ,stutering ,fatigue,(extreme) tremors ,ringing ears,eye trembling ,back pain and so on. I've done alot of tests and nothing to be found my life has changed from pink to black. I used to be an athlete and now I can hardly move ,I am having a second test done for lyme and no explanation for what I am going through I feel like my brain is shutting down on me and it makes me super depressed because no matter how hard I try I just can't find my self and I really need my old self back and my hopes are so low. Thank you for reading and God bless everyone.

So far waiting for the lyme kit to arrive (says my doctor ) so it can be done and send to U.S (from Toronto) have no idea what happened to me and what awaits for me it's a very scary road

My memory is much better now - try not to worry - it should come back with treatment.
For awhile I would wake up in the morning and not know what day it was - it was scary.
Even looking at the calendar sometimes couldn’t figure when my appts were.

My husband was perplexed because he’s relied on my good memory throughout our marriage.
He thought a few times that I was just joking around - until I started crying.

How long have you had symptoms?

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Are you taking anything now?

When I had lyme the first go around (in remission 5 years and just relapsed) my neuro issues were horrible: brain fog, memory loss, ears ringing, always exhausted; I even forgot who / where I was for a good 30 minutes one day. My friends joking called me a goldfish because my short term memory only lasted maybe 3-5 minutes tops. It wasn't uncommon for me to be in a serious debate with someone, stop mid-word, look around and then ask them if we had been talking. Turns out most of it wasn't the lyme but yeast build up. My LLMD explained that even if we take antibiotics for a week we really need probiotics for a year because otherwise it builds up yeast in your body and eventually your body stops fighting against it. That yeast build up then pokes holes in your intestines and the food you eat goes out said holes and your body becomes allergic. I had to do a yeast protocol along side my lyme treatment and go cold turkey from the foods I tested an allergy for. I was really good about staying away from those foods and sugar (sugar feeds yeast) for about 3-4 years and then I slowly reintroduced those foods back into my diet. It's slow going but worth it. I highly recommend getting your yeast and food allergies tested. Hope this helped. Good luck!

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Sorry to hear about your symptoms, Anitas. If it makes you feel any less alone, I can relate to much of what you describe. I miss my old self, or what I thought I might become without this relentless ailment. It seems there is a compromise and that is super-depressing enough; for people like us, who used to be athletes, with plenty of energy, and being really good at things like being a student, or someone's great mom, or a good son, with our steel-trap memories. I don't take it for granted any day I can breeze through any tasks, which is rare.

I literally have to write each task to do down each day to remember to do it, by the time I'm getting through the list I'm exhausted. If there weren't others experiencing these same bizarre unique frustrations, I would hardly believe it myself. Anyway, your description of depersonalization and brain fog is uncannily similar to what I've experienced. Just wanted you to know that. It seems that there are quite a few of us. I hope you find some relief.

Hi Anitas, to address your questions quickly: I did get intermittent days of improvement, after Buhner protocol, the 1st couple of times I tried cholestyramine, some folk remedies and abx treatments, all sort of a blur now, but that happened within the last 3-4 years. I get glimmers of my old potential, my old self yes. For a clearer mind, only rarely after the uncommonly good night of sleep or very good supplements. I get relief from prescribed sedatives and very clean diet, and also when my stressors are gone.

I am determined to not let my health get worse, by keeping my mind occupied and doing activities every day.

I have a family member with Alz, sadly I don't think she ever in her life explored exercise enough to counteract her symptoms. And family won't listen to me about exploring the infectious side of her illness either... It is very difficult and frustrating.