Help for depression and anxiety

I’ve been really struggling esp the last couple weeks with getting a handle on my anxiety and depression. I had a bad relapse several months back and it’s been a hard pill to swallow. Thankfully I’ve been able to use short term disability for the pots dx but it only lasts so long. I’ve been at this for many years dx in 2015 but I’ve have symptoms for much longer 2009 is when they were more prominent that something was wrong. My gut is a mess. I’m seeing a cardiologist for the pots but it’s not helping much and I have an apt with a new Lyme doctor in a couple weeks.

It’s just all so confusing. I was doing so well esp the summer before I started going backwards. I even went on vacation to the Virgin Islands with my boyfriend. It was just amazing and overall I did so well. I felt I’d made such progress the first vacation I felt well enough to fully enjoy in many, many years. I keep trying to figure out I feel like I did something wrong to cause this relapse and it’s probably my ocd causing me to obsess over this figuring out why. I just seems so cruel to have such improvement and have such a harsh push back to reality. I can’t understand it.

The only thing I can think is I was on the alinia medication for over a year for babesia off and on but mostly on and my doctor kept it mostly the same bc I was doing a lot better. Ive always heard you need to change up meds or herbs to keep it at bay. I’m happy to have had that time but obviously now I’m super confused if maybe I let too much stress happen idk but it’s hard not to blame myself. I was doing better at staying positive I’m the beginning but now it’s bee very hard. I’m not sure how to cope with such drastic change.

Would love any suggestions to help improve my mood or any other advice

Thanks! I’ll check that out

Have you done ERMI or HERTSMI-2 on your apartment or workplace or had a urine mycotoxin test since this relapse started? I went back to your Feb post. You mentioned a pipe bursting at work at one point. Mold exposure causes a lot of these symptoms. I am dealing with increased heart rate, heart skipping beats, swelling in my feet and ankles, pain, and a whole lot more due to mold exposure.

Indoor Mold in water damaged buildings and their mycotoxins can cause relapses faster than you can say M-O-L-D. Your increased C4a levels are already one lab indicator.

As for your fairly new apartment, it could still have mold. If there’s been mold or water damage in an adjacent unit, it could be affecting you as well. Right now, I have new mold growth in the vented attic in my house. I have horrific reactions to the mycotoxins all around the yard and property. The wind blows through the attic and carries the mycotoxins out through the soffit vents and disperses them all around. It’s like a science fiction nightmare, because the spores and mycotoxins are invisible, yet I am so sensitized that I can smell them and feel bodily reactions when they hit my skin or I inhale them.

Time in nature helps me a lot with this.

WalkingbyFaith said...
Have you done ERMI or HERTSMI-2 on your apartment or workplace or had a urine mycotoxin test since this relapse started? I went back to your Feb post. You mentioned a pipe bursting at work at one point. Mold exposure causes a lot of these symptoms. I am dealing with increased heart rate, heart skipping beats, swelling in my feet and ankles, pain, and a whole lot more due to mold exposure.

Indoor Mold in water damaged buildings and their mycotoxins can cause relapses faster than you can say M-O-L-D. Your increased C4a levels are already one lab indicator.

As for your fairly new apartment, it could still have mold. If there’s been mold or water damage in an adjacent unit, it could be affecting you as well. Right now, I have new mold growth in the vented attic in my house. I have horrific reactions to the mycotoxins all around the yard and property. The wind blows through the attic and carries the mycotoxins out through the soffit vents and disperses them all around. It’s like a science fiction nightmare, because the spores and mycotoxins are invisible, yet I am so sensitized that I can smell them and feel bodily reactions when they hit my skin or I inhale them.

No, I haven’t had any recent testing done. Are there any affordable tests you know of that I could test my apartment? I remember doing one test on my old apt years ago but I can’t remember what I used. I have been out of work since end of January. If it was from work do you think being out of the environment for extended period would be enough to decrease symptoms. I have been taking charcoal although I need to get more consistent with it again.

Even in “remission” from all my lyme symptoms, I have spiked of severe anxiety + depression.
I have had almost zero lyme + co symptoms for one year and 4 months.
But I notice I get my panic attacks when I get off track with diet, specifically when accidentally ingesting any artificial sweeteners.
This leads to a few days of bad anxiety and vivid depressive thoughts.

Also I may have intestinal parasites I’m not sure but I get overrun by an insatiable appetite the week before the full moon and break out bad with acne and have liver pain only on the full moon. I’m still completely functional it’s more annoying than anything. but i’ve read a lot about those causing anxiety and depression too.

I do find significant relief from going for daily walks or if i’m too tired (I have a 7 month old baby) then we just sit in the grass for some grounding and soak up the sun. or even sit in the patio in the rain. just something to get out in the air. it rlly helps my anx/dep