Lyme and and strong and atypical mental problems?

Has anyone here ever had very atypical and strong mental symptoms with Lyme disease?
I'm not sure what my symptoms are...

For the past few weeks I've had the sensation of being half-conscious, of not really living. As if my soul had been cut in two.
This sensation is not abstract, it's literal. It's really difficult for the sufferer to express, and I think that's why doctors think that the patient in front of them is expressing signs of depression. It's a far cry from (but it's accompanied by) the feeling of depersonalization that can indeed be found in depression.
Depersonalization gives you the strange feeling of being the spectator of your actions, but you know that it's really you who's doing them.
I don't really feel like I'm spectating, I still feel anchored in myself, but it's as if I'm gradually losing "consciousness".

We still don't really know how consciousness works in humans, but studies tend to suggest that the state of conscience may reside in the brain stem. I sometimes wonder whether I have lesions in these areas.

Occasionally I feel like I'm being rebooted too. As if I'd suddenly forgotten what life was all about, its concepts, myself, the people around me, everything suddenly seems blurry and unfamiliar.
It can take a few seconds for the brain to recalibrate. And those are really scary moments...

There's also the constant feeling of having lost my memories/life experiences, as if I only had access to a tiny part of my brain (in this case, that's really what you could call depersonalization).

I've seen people talk about brain fog, concentration/memory problems, neuroborreliosis with nerve pain and facial paralysis.
But none of the testimonials/symptom lists indicate symptoms as atypical as mine.
I've also seen people talk about dementia, but I don't think my symptoms fit into that category, since they're not psychotic.I am unfortunately aware of my condition and I suffer a lot.
I'm beginning to think that it's not my recently diagnosed Lyme disease that's making me suffer, but that something else is behind it all...

I'm starting to freak out a bit.
This condition isn't really bearable in itself, so for the moment I'm putting up with it and staying focused on my projects to try and forget about it, but I couldn't live like this for the rest of my life.

Hi Noxon

as per RW

i don't think what you are describing is actually atypical for Lyme - i would say its just another form of derealisation

Lyme is known to cause altered states of consciousness of many different types - how one person experiences this will just be different to how the next one does.

i wouldn't get too hung up on finding someone who describes that they experience EXACTLY what your experiencing - it might seem significant - but the underlying causes are the same - inflammation in the brain - and it doesn't really have very much bearing on your treatment.

unfortunately - yes that is the case

however - that is what the community here is for - you need not be completely isolated - and there are people here who understand - so it can be a valuable connection with others where you can feel understood and valued - and also share coping strategies and approaches to make life liveable
even though obviously we are all still ill and not living the lives we would like to be living.

there is hope though - many have recovered
others like myself are some decent way along the path of recovery

I’ve seen the depersonalization symptom description here for many years. However, that’s just a term depending on how you like to define things.

You can have low thyroid with or without Lyme disease. Have you considered that because that will cause all these mental symptoms also. On top of it you can also have both like I did.