Hi hopingToFindCure. No one is going to think badly about you for doing what is best for you.
You may want to ask your doctor about taking VSL#3 double strength. This is like a prescription acidophilus. It has 900 billion bacteria per packet. I have taken it before and it helped with diarrhea. Oddly enough, my insurance would not cover the regular strength, but it did cover the double strength.
I hope this clears up for you soon.