Worst Week

Most of you know that overall I have been feeling well. I am not on meds or have been since having my baby 14 months ago. Well, we are in the process of buying a house and supposed to close this Thursday. It must be the stress because I have felt so awful the past few weeks and usually I have a day or two not well and then feel much better, but this is lasting so I can only attribute it to the stress of moving. Well, now today we find out there is an issue and it may hold it up. I have spent so much money already and planned this move for months now and to have this happen, I swear I feel like I might just not make it through this process. I don't want to go on meds right now, but may have to start again after the move because the stress of all this has seemed to bring out my symptoms a lot more than normal.

Ugh! My battle has been a long one and I never give up, but how can any human avoid stressful situations? I mean really, is that even possible? I always flare up really bad during difficult times, but with a baby and a move it is proving to be a lot more than I care to handle right now.

Blah! Hopefully it all goes through ok and I can get in to my new place and refocus on my health and relax just a little bit.

It seems that our mortgage broker messed up and may cause us to loose the new home. Now let me say this, if I felt well enough I would drive down there and wring his neck (I can blame it on lyme rage). Needless to say this isn't helping things. My heart is racing out of my chest because I am so livid. The house is brand new for my daughter and right across from my mother who helps a lot with everything so it is beyond perfect for us and now we may lose it and I cannot handle that. We gave our notice already at our current home, spent thousands already and have movers set to go and now because of his mistake we may not get it and then we get to be homeless. Do you ever feel like anything that is too good to be true is and that life just keeps s**ting on you. I think if I didn't have lyme I could handle this better, but given how I feel right now I just want to lay down and turn the world off. Ugh! I really hope there is an angel on my side today.

Sometimes things work out even if barriers appear. I pray that this is the case for you. Just knowing that the stress has activated lyme should ease your worries some. When the stress dies back, your symptoms will too. If you can find a way to make yourself feel calm, that could help ease symptoms even now. Blessings, Ginnia

STOP! - that's all you need to do - things sort themselves out - do lots of deep breathing - small breath in - bigger breath out - I know it is not really that simple but it does help.

what really matters is that you don't make yourself so ill that you can't enjoy your journey through life - with all of it's ups and downs - we all have them.

take a step back - however this turns out - as long as your family are well and you - then everything will be o.k.

good luck - gorbs x

I am trying but easier said than done. Yesterday was a bad day and of course I am paying for it today with a lovely migraine. It is just too much sometimes. But, I know something has to work out in the end and I know I will get through it, just hate that my symptoms flair so much during stressful times and I think I just was never good at learning to deal with stress so my body takes it all in and pays the price. Most people drink or smoke or shop or eat. I am the opposite. I don't drink, never smoked, can't shop and I don't eat so I need to take up yoga or something to destress and I think that will help. Running after a little one doesn't help relaxing much either. I think it just brings out the worst in people and if we can get it all worked out I can calm down and focus on my health again. Just feeling negative at the moment when things were so positive so I have to fight my way through this again and hopefully not end up back on meds.

I do take vitamins for suppliments and I drink a green protien shake (I am a terribly eater - always have been) so this helps a lot as I get a lot of what I wouldn't normally eat, but otherwise that's it for me. I don't like to take a lot of stuff. More of a natural kind of gal (didn't even take drugs during my childbirth - ouch!). I took only one Tylenol the day after and that was it. I pretty much white knuckle my way through life.