Don't know if I can take this anymore

I understand how you feel. I wrote to you directly and you can write back to me.
I think that the valium is not a good idea.
what are you taking for depression....the first thing that you need to address.
If you are hopeless this is not good.
Have you been tested for Bart at Fry labs in AZ? I strongely suggest this for you.
If you call them at 1 480 292-8560 they will send you a kit. Follow the directions....all you have to do it go to a place or Dr. that draws blood on a Monday or Tuesday...and then fex ex it back to them...asap.
They include the fex ex in the kit that they send to you.

The bart can cause the anxiety and the depression...on top of everything else that the lyme does to you.
My heart was beating out of my chest and my depression was landing me in a mental institute for my bad thoughts and desires....they call it "Plans".
Fry found my Bart....which causes "untreatable depression and anxiety"
Most depression meds....made me feel like I was going to faint...my heart speeding...awful.
cymbalta worked for me. 60 mg.start with 30 mg. some people can take it at bed time....some cannot.
I take it in the morning...it gets rid of pain.....gets rid of cronic fatique etc.
To keep myself for getting an EKG daily....lol...and to stop the highs and scary lows....that became a daily ordeal.
I was put on Lamictal.
I cannot tell you how great this made me feel...like being on a vacation with a glass of wine......
It stabilized me totally. It is for bi polar people. He told me that I was not bi polar....but after I told him how I wanted to die....he put me on it...asap.
These are not cures...but they will help you function...and fight.
Get stabilized....get off of the valium....not helping at all. And the last thing that you need right now it a drug addiction.
And feel free to contact me directly and vent and I am here to help you anyway that I can.
But first get your depression and your test addressed...ok?
Marie

Jennifer,

How are you doing today? I sent you a message on Myspace too. I just want to say that even if you have MS, it can be managed and alot of people live pain free and go about their lives. This is not a death sentence. You CAN manage it. I just saw a story on Tv the other day about a man that had MS for over 20 years. He was running around with his teenage daughter outside. He said, at first it was rough but that now he's on medicine and feels really good. Look at Montel Wiiliams....he has Lupus and does his show every single day. These diseases can be managed.

In my opinion, you have symptoms of bartonella. I was told I have it too. It can give you anxiety, panic attacks, make you feel depressed and hopeless. It even makes me go into rages sometimes and that is not fun. Go to your appointment and see what your LLMD says. Don't let these diseases take your life. You can get better and feel good again.

I have 2 children. One is 19. I'm used to listening and helping with problems. If you need to talk or vent, email me. I will get it right away. My email is to the left of this message.

Jen,
I really want to know how you are doing?
Have you looked for therapy for medical illness? Found someone to talk to yet that specializes in chronic illness?
I really need to make sure you answer all three questions.
Thanks,
Navy

You said that you are sweating. ????? Are you running a fever? Get the kids thermos from the store, the one that you can put in your ear. Check it daily. I had 99.9-101 for 6 months..and would soak though my clohtes 3 times a day.
This is bart.
Oh...we all had fevers in the beginning of infection from 102-107
But....do you have a dog?