James?

Anybody talk to him? Is he okay?

James, are you here?

i'm here, i didn't hear anything today from the doc, which now i'm freaked out....i couldn't sleep at all last night and now i'm so tired and i'm laying down right now as i type.. my chest is so tight and i feel numb all over.. might be lyme might be stress/anxiety waiting for the dreadful phone call i'll receive from the doc tomorrow or whenever he decides to tell me the news.


i talked to my boss today and took an emergency vacation to deal with everything i'm going through this week... i feel so bad for doing that though since its so busy right now for us. i just have a bad feeling about that phone call.. i can't stop thinking about it and how it could change my life forever.. and dealing with lyme also.. its a double edge sword right now for me.. i can't seem to shake it....

James,

I really think everything is going to be okay, too.

Please take care of yourself as best you can.

thanks

i was told 20 minutes from testing i would know, then i was told 24 hrs, now its been past that.. i'm guessing tomorrow i will find out for sure.. i just pray its a neg.. i have been beating myself up over this.. the lyme rash triggered me to do this, i have been wanting and fearing this day for the past 4 years..

thanks, it really helps when i know people are there praying for me.. the more prayers the better.. regardless of the outcome, i will deal with what i have and try my hardest to move foward the best i can, i might not be the old james, but i'll try to be.

James,

You will NOT have failed any of us. We are all here for you no matter what. You don't have to post the results if you feel uncomfortable. I don't think we have to worry about any bad news though.

James,

I felt the same way when my doctor admitted me into the hospital 2 years ago thinking I may have meningitis. When that came back negative, I asked her to check for everything including Aids and cancer. It was very scary to even think that may be what I had. My ex husband cheated on me years ago and I also made mistakes. Everything was fine though and now I'm stuck with Lyme, LOL.

Anyway, how are you feeling today?

Hey James,

Just wanted you to know that I also have hyperpigmentation on my face that came out of nowhere. It's right under my eye in a half moon like shape. Thank God for makeup being able to cover it up. Someone once thought I had a black eye, LOL. A chiropractor told me that it may be toxins settling under my skin.

I still have it but it has lightened up a whole lot. I think Lyme messes with everything in the body and it could have caused this too. Besides my liver enzymes being slightly elevated at one time, there was no other reason for it.

james maybe you should call them to get your test report. if they said 24 hrs then its way pass that. many times they get the report but foreget to call you. spicaly if its not bad news. shoot it took them 3 weeks to get back with me on 1 of my test. and then i finaly give up waiting and called them for it.

had my report in the mail the next day...lol i think they wanted to hatch it.

and just so you know i am praying everything is all good. i dont belive you have HIV either :)

James,

If they have your results now and if it was positive, they would be giving you a call right away. They usually take longer when results are negative.

Also, ummmm just to let you know....I got pregnant with my second child by my husband doing what you are doing. Men have "stuff" (I won't say the word) that comes out before your ummmm climax and your GF could still get whatever you have that way. Protection is the best way to go.

g/f just called and just back from cancun.. she had a great time there, and took alot of pics.. i'll have to see them to i can relate to a good time.

she asked how i was doing, i was trying to be optimistic but was kinda sad still, but happy to hear her voice. i told her i did take some tests and i'm still waiting on results. I knda freaked her out and told her that it could be hiv, she then said 'james i tested neg in sept' i said so what, that doesn't mean anything to me.. so she is now in a state of panic. o great!

bad things happen...

in the last month, i sold my new house i lived in for 2 years by myself, got sick right before moving, moved in with family thinking i would do this for a couple of months until i found another house and paid my credit card off.. Sold my Acura Tl due to hospital visits and being in the unknown field. Now i'm driving my moms civic to work, and work is on standby because i'm freaking out over everything..

what a life.. i heard of ups and downs, and i'm so down.. i know alot of people on here are in a lot worse shape than me with lyme.. and i support you guys just as much as the support you giving me.. i just feel like my life is crumbling in front of my face all the matter of 2 months.....

James, Hang in there. I also agree with CajunGrl and believe you will get a call telling you it's negative. Then you can start concentrating on treating the LD.

HANG IN THERE. WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MEAN IT, IF I CAN HANG IN THERE, ANYBODY CAN - HAHA! You'll get your results soon. Let us know what happens.

James, I agree w/ all those above who are telling you to call the Dr office. They have neglected to call you, for whatever reason, OR the lab has not completed the work in the prescribed time, for whatever reason. Generally they call people right away if there are 'issues' in their labs.

I'm not just trying to bolster you or get you to be more positive, but I have a very strong feeling that you've got, as MJF says, 'A dose of the Lyme'. I honestly have this feeling that you do not have HIV.

None the less, we will all keep you in our minds (when we are being positive.... ) and our prayers. You may be getting ready to travel down a difficult road, but I sincerely believe it's not the end of the road.... Sincerely, James, I mean it.