Paranoia?

This is absolutely a symptom of lyme or possibly bartonella. I went through the same exact thing. I was so paranoid it was ruining my life. Then the crying started. I didn't know what depression was but apparently that's what it is. If your dr. knows anything at all about lyme, he will acknowledge the problems that go along with it. I went on an antidepressant and it has made all the difference in the world. Although I still have many symptoms, being sad and angry is not one of them. Best of luck to you.

Worrypot.....When LD's in your head you do not realise it's there, I found that my darkest thoughts were the scariest symptom of LD, I was able to rationalise the pain and understand that if I couldn't raise my head from the pillow one morning or I couldn't lift my arm from my side (and 100 other things) within a few hours it would probably pass and I'd be up and about again. But the paranoia, anxity and apathy were very different. I just didn't realise my thoughts were not rational, I too wanted to just walk away from my family and I just wanted to be left alone to stew in my own self pity. It's weird that we want to hurt those closest to us, you must be careful with those thoughts aimed at the people you love, try not to act on your impulses or try to remember that the "terrorist within" is holding you hostage.

I now have massive empathy for those people with a mental illness that is not treatable, luckily for me my mind was the first thing that was cleared by my onset of treatment. After around 6 weeks of abx I could think clearly enough to understand the impact of how this illness had changed me. Within a week of starting treatment my wife said it was like someone had turned my light back on, although I did have crying spells for up to year in to my treatment. Hold in there and continue to detox and take your abx and hopefully these thoughts will clear quickly. I'm sure Dr D will understand your worries......as for your GP......in my experience with the NHS.....possible not.

Mik

I feel like I'm reading my own words! I feel like I'm going crazy! I always think im going to get in trouble and that people don't like me. I analyze every single social interaction, making sure I didn't offend anyone. It's just awful. I was always an anxious person, but this is a new extreme and only started after beginning treatment. I started taking a new psychiatric med-hopefully that will help?