Anyone Else Have A Short Fuse With Lyme?

According to James Schaller (LLMD & researcher), anyone with more severe psychiatric issues, it's due to Bartonella combined with Lyme. I would encourage anyone with these issues to check out his site: www.personalconsult.com/

I did not know that and will check out the website. !!

I have Lyme and bartonella and for years struggled with rage. I envisioned a screaming woman imprisoned deep within my body, beating at the bars of her enclosure and writhing with anguish at the abandonment of self control.

When I am well enough to do it, an exhausting session at the gym would ease my rage. Now I often can't do that, so I have to face it less aggressively. Sometimes that means crying alone. Sometimes it means taking time out for a vignette where I surround myself with what I value - a good book, cup of tea, warm blanket, and quiet time. Sometimes i play violent music on my keyboard. I have even closed myself away in my walk in closet with a candle and a sand garden, doodling in the sand until I find peace. The common denominator seems to be for me a change of environment and time for myself to reset.

It sure was liberating after I was finally diagnosed correctly to learn that I wasn't some short fused hot head in need of psychiatric intervention (tho I had plenty of that) , but rather I was responding to pathogens. Abx for lyme has helped, too.

I also have "unlike me" fits of anger and rage at situations or scenarios that I never use to get this angry about. It is the bacteria invading your brain. I think it is in the hypocampus or hypothalmus part of the brain that makes us experience the emotional liability aspects of this horrible disease. I hate it and I posted about it a week or so ago myself because I was so sick of how I react so intensely to stupid problems in my life. I have ruined my virgin mobile phone that I paid so much money for just because I have thrown it so many times out of rage. It is awful. Nobody could understand except for somebody with LYME. My boyfriend fortunately knows the person I was 5 years ago and thank god he knows this isn't the real me when I act this way. I need to take something to relax myself and I wonder what would work best anybody have any favorite herbs they use to help them calm down??? (other than marijuana lol which I have never used and won't as long as I am working full time)

LOL, trees can take a lot - as long as it's not a goat   chewing off the bark all around the stem, they will mostly survive. Or maybe you and your goats together were too much for them and they died?

If they didn't, you can make it up though and hug them (it's very relaxing, I tried it once, I know, I'm crazy)

Trees have a way of getting back at you if you abuse them

My pear tree still hasn't forgiven me for cutting a branch off last Autumn........it pelts me with pears every time I stand underneath it.

I swear I've been hit on the head by falling fruit so often that it can't be a coincidence.

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Maybe it's trying to feed you out of thankfulness - lol

This topic and all of your replies are the greatest things I've read on this site... and I've read some POWERFUL stuff here.  I usually just sit back and read and feel comfortable knowing I'm not alone and that we're all working together through this, but this time I had to post just to thank all of you for sharing your stories.

My terribly short temper seemed to be in check until I got sick.  Even then, I managed it VERY well if you ask me.  Sadly, since I started oral abx two weeks ago, I've started getting so angry that I can't talk to my family.  I just want to help my kids by telling them what they're doing wrong, but I end up getting mad at them for no reason.  I don't like them seeing that kind of behavior, so if I just stay away.  Just thinking about it makes me cry (I was just finishing the crying session I had from reading all your posts, so now I'll just start a new one).  My kids are 5 and 3, they are still learning how to behave (it's not their fault for not knowing!), and me getting mad doesn't help at all.  So, I get mad at myself for not being able to control myself, and it all spirals out of control. GRRRRR!!!!  My brain screams at itself asking why it's thinking these things and feeling this way, and I just don't know why it has to be this way!  It's crazy and fascinating how these new chemicals can change our thought patterns and our personalities.

I sincerely thank all of you for letting me know I'm not alone and I can get past this.  I needed this today.