Hi Kikina,
First of all, I'm so sorry that you are in this position. Let's see what we can do to get you started feeling like you are gaining some ground. Quite a few members here use a 'natural' approach to healing from these infections with good results, including myself
If you are up to it, I would suggest that you use our search function here (in the blue bar near the top of the page, on the right side) and enter the search terms "Byron White Formula" "BW formulas, Lyme" - I did and had a lot of posts come up to read!
From what I have read, the biggest issue for those using these formulas was trying to figure out how help their bodies keep up with the detoxing! This can happen for many that are using other forms of treatment as well though, so I would suggest that you take it slow and detox every opportunity you can - but always taking things slowly, never very much in any one day, as your body is most likely quite overloaded with these toxins already. That's usually what make us feel so bad when we start treatments. I too have issues with detoxing.
I had the same issues with abx as you - from what I understood from reading your last post. Once on them, I kept getting more and more ill until one day - a year later - I just quit using them. I honestly felt that if I stayed on them I was going to die. I ended up fully bed ridden for a short amount of time, then house bound for a while longer.
Can you or your Mother make you "green smoothies" using lots of 'greens' like kale, and/or spinach? If so start adding about
1 lb of carrots for each week of smoothies - or drink carrot juice. My Doctor told me that carrots have an amazing ability to help the body rid itself of toxins, and I know that it's helped me.
I most certainly understand why you are afraid!! I know I was and a whole lot of other member have been as well. This
is scary! although that doesn't mean that you can't get through this with the help from some new friends - us!!!
We aren't doctors, but collectively we have used so many different things, that by using the search function and just being here to read any time you are up to it, will help you right along!
We are here with you, Kikina. Relax and try to muster up some faith that you really
can and will heal, because just by believing that you can heal will help as well!!