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Posted 10/23/2012 9:08 PM (GMT 0)
I'm 17 and i've had Lyme Disease for 6 months now. Not only has it ruined my body internally, but it has ruined my social life. I've lost all my friends, and even my own father refuses to be apart of my life now. They think i'm "crazy" and lyme is all "in my head". It drives me insane, i have bad mental breakdowns at home every day to my mom and she feels heart broken. I take 25+ pills a day, its so difficult. This is my senior year and i don't want to go into college like this. I feel like dieing every SINGLE day, and that's not who i am. I forget things, my left shoulder is in unbearable pain, i have a hard time staying awake, and i have migranes 24/7 (literally). I need someone around my age to help me, to be my friend, and someone who is going through the same thing. Please talk to me, because i need all the help i can get.
Posted 10/23/2012 9:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Jaclyn,

I do not have Lyme but my mom does. I wish I could offer you the comfort of knowing what you're going through, but I can say as being only 23 and watching my mom struggle with the same things you are, that I understand how you feel. People don't "get" Lyme. I know I didn't get it until I watched it slowly turn my mom from an active, healthy woman to a sickly, crippled one.

I know it may not feel like much, but know there is someone out there praying for you.
Posted 10/23/2012 10:05 PM (GMT 0)
Jaclyn,

Please know that you are not alone in your battle with this illness. There are many, great supportive people on this forum that understand exactly what you are going through.

I too have been very sick for 6 months. I have a mental breakdown every morning to my husband, because I feel so awful and cannot go to work and be the active person I once was. It affects you on every level. I am older than you, but feel your isolation and fears. It takes a toll being this sick for a long time, and like you I don't feel like many people in our life understand what we are really going through. I think a lot of it is fear, or selfishness. Sometimes all I want someone to do is give me a hug, or tell me it's going to be okay, that I am strong and will get through this. I don't want pity, just support.

You are going to be okay sweetheart. You are young, and will heal. It might not be as fast as you would like, but you will get there. And you will be so much stronger.

I am praying for you, also for your Mom citygirl, and all of us affected by Lyme.

We will get through this, one day at a time :-)

****Hug*****
Posted 10/23/2012 10:53 PM (GMT 0)
Taking magnesium glycinate has helped me a lot with my mental symptoms.
Posted 10/23/2012 11:09 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you guys for your support and comfort. It makes me feel so at ease that i'm not the only one feeling like this, because nobody wants to live life like this. WarriorMom and Citygirl89, you both are in my thoughts in prayers and everyone you know affected by it. But time heals all wounds, and everything happens for a reason, which i like to think every day.
**hugs**

And thanks to you too firtress, i will ask my mom about that because i think that would help a lot!
Posted 10/24/2012 1:31 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Jaclyn! I'm so sorry you are going through this! At your age being sick is the last thing you want to deal with. I also have been sick for 6 mos. and I can tell you it's a slow, arduous process trying to get better--but you can! You have to take really good care of yourself and take your meds, eat really healthily, and detox, detox, detox. If you need info on what you should be doing to detox it's under the 'New to Lyme?' Thread on the first page of the forum. You have age on your side and you can and WILL get better if you do what is necessary. In the meantime, take it one day at a time. This will pass. I know you are having a hard time missing out on your senior year activities, but if you get yourself well just think of the fun you will have your freshman year in college!! I think those of us that have been there would agree that freshman year in college beats senior year in high school by far! Do research and ask questions. You will be OK. Take care.
Posted 10/24/2012 3:20 AM (GMT 0)
I feel really alone right now, my so called friend said he does not know how to help me
and basically, our friendship is over, I have mixed feelings, about the whole thing

but I for the first time in my life, I feel absoultely alone.
Posted 10/24/2012 10:04 AM (GMT 0)
I know the feeling of being alone, let me say something, I think it's the Lyme that gets in our head. I wake up some days and tell myself I can't do another day like this. The pain is horrible people don't get Lyme, they think if you look okay , you must be okay. They don't see what is going on in our bodies.

I am not sure how long I have had Lyme, but I know it's been years without answers. I tell myself everyday, I have to fight, I have to get my butt up and fight Lyme. Being 17 is hard enough, I understand the Lyme makes it so much worse, but you can get through it. This website is a start. I have had many people in my life, just up and stop talking to me , co-workers pull their papers so I won't touch and infect them. I would cry about it, then I realized, screw them, they are not fighting this battle, I am. Let people talk , and if my so called friends don't want to speak to me anymore so be it, but I would never do that to a person.

Also I think we need to get more Lyme awareness out there, so many people are suffering, and their isn't much help .

I feel like with Lyme , it 's a war, a war between them and me, and I want my life back. There is no one more important in your life than you are, I am really sorry you have it also. No one should have to go through it, but we have it, and we must try to take back our life. Some days are really bad, we are so sick, we have to know we are going to get through this, it's half the battle I think.

just me
Posted 10/24/2012 11:53 AM (GMT 0)
Oh Jaclyn, I so feel for you but please know that you will feel normal again. A lot of us with lyme go through a period of frustration, depression or anger. Lyme is such a bizarre illness. It really is but whatever you do, don't doubt yourself. What you are feeling is real and is not your fault. I used to blame myself and started thinking maybe I was making up half the symptoms even though I wasn't.

My best advice to you is to try and think positive and take one day at a time. Stress prevents you from getting well so exercising relaxation techniques will help your body to calm and heal. It sounds weird I know but it helps.

Although I am still dealing with my lyme stuff, my head is clear and positive and my energy level has returned to normal and you are WAYYYY younger than me. lol.

I hope today is a good day for you!!
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