Posted 2/13/2013 10:53 PM (GMT 0)
I took two benadryll last night... WOW do I feel different today. I still have tons of hives... maybe the same amount... But I feel so much clearer, more stable, more energy, more thoughts, feelings, opinions. It seriously feels like I'm encountering myself after a very long absence (months).. Like "hello Rachel, it's been a while!"
I'm wondering.. What might that indicate? That I've been having a prolonged allergic reaction to one of the treatments I'm on? Or a prolonged herx?
The other thing I'm grappling with is how unhelpful my fancy LLMD has been this week. The most I got was a call back from his unknowledgable intern, which got cut off and I haven't been able to reach him since. I do not have a bunch of money (I'm a self-employed artist) but I decided to make this investment. I know the doc knows his stuff, but he's also quite unavailable.. You only get to see him every three appointments, the others are with his staff. Also, he's stated that his patients don't only pay for their care, they are paying for him to do lyme research. Maybe that's just the state of things but it's tough when lyme patients are necessarily rich!
I'm considering letting him go and resuming my relationship with the doc who diagnosed me to begin with. He's a naturopath with a more modest practice... Not a lyme specialist but has treated many with lyme... He's more affordable and conscientious about budget. His treatment is much simpler... Really just the A-L and A-Bart, black walnut for parasites.. After really feeling like I've gotten much worse on the LLMD's treatment the past 3 months simple doesn't sound so bad.
I don't want to let go of someone who can help me. Maybe a complex illness needs the LLMDs complex approach.