support

 

    I have an appt out of town,  I asked my mom, cause sometimes she goes there

for her appts, so I thought in case she was already going there

that I could get a ride with her,  since I am so ill to drive

 if u know some of the story with her and i, it just goes to show how sick I am

 and finaces are low to get a cab

  and she is just so cold, so now I am crying, I tell her how sick I am

  and she does not respond  just says she does not have an appointment down there

 which we already discussed

I feel like i have the plague

it is offical

like a leper or something

this is what those people must have felt like

I dont understand how she is so cold

I pray that this house sells soon, u guys

I will be in environment away  hopefully more conducive to heal

where is god,  I really need some divine help now,  angels, fairies even, :) 

now I want to cry,

at one point she said I dont let her help me

but she clearly does not want to help me

so I have to turn to the interentet, support groups  for support

but I do feel more support from u guys here

cause u guys can relate more or understand

so I am forever grateful to u all

thanks for listening

 It is hard suffereing with this disease alone

wellbeautifulspirit,

I am sorry that you are suffering so badly- both physically and emotionally. It is so sad to me that many of you have to walk on your path of suffering alone. My poor daughter at least did not have to experience that aspect of her illness, although she did miss her friends, and felt like an "outsider" when she returned to school and swim team.

I will pray that God will wrap His love around you, and that you will find comfort and peace.

My 78 y.o. Chiropractor once made a startling statement. He treats all kinds of people with all kinds of issues. He said that based on talking with his patients, and their symptoms, that he would personally rather get cancer then lyme disease. He doesn't treat Lyme but just gives them chiropractic adjustments. He said that his lyme patients suffer a lot more, and are more debilitated,on average, then his cancer patients.

Don

thank u, soo much,

I just went to get some air,

thanks for listening, I was thinking, I just want her, my mom to understand more, but I know intellectually I have to let it go

and turn to god, cause, that is what is going to help get me out of this more so than she will

thanks