Only test ordered was metabolic panel. She did say that she believes I have Lyme and has added it to my list of dx. She also agreed to consult with LLMD again for next stps or tests. Have to see SSDI doctor later today for med eval. stressing over it since I know it is a waste of time. not sure I should mention lyme since I think I recall someone mentioning that SSDI doesnt recognise late stage lyme. Not sure how it will go with company now and benefits once they see her dx of lyme. I just feel the system is rigeed against those who have chronic illness.... very down, tired of the battle, tired of seeing my decisions, behaviors so different from when I was well. Very discouraged. Hate this down spirit, cant seem to break into a positive attitude, cant will it and prayers hit the ceiling...
To discouraged to pray anymore....I just dont understand the purpose. But I'm sure that is how Joseph felt also and Job.