Please reassure me...

First I want to say, that when I am feeling better and things have settled down (I'm trying to believe they will), I will come back here to help other people out. This board is an invaluable source of support for people dealing with these stupid diseases.

That said, I was feeling better about myself after landing a couple of job interviews--until I heard from my ex last night. I had told him that he owed me a couple of alimony checks--he puts them in the side pocket of a bag we use to transfer our kids' stuff from house to house. He insisted they'd been in the pocket, I said I hadn't seen them. He replaced them, and I sent the replacements to my bank.

Today, I find that the original two checks deposited into my acct. on Monday. I'll have to pay to have a stop payment put on the replacements, says my ex. Fair enough--it was my mistake. But I have NO MEMORY of doing this. I would have had to fill out a deposit slip, sign the two checks, stick them in an envelope and address it, stamp it, then take it to the mailbox.

How is it possible to do all of this and have NO MEMORY of it? I'm scared! Am I losing my mind? I have so much on my plate right now--so much stress. I want to believe that this, in combination with the Lyme, has temporarily made me more forgetful. I'm not experiencing early Alzheimer's or something, am I? Maybe the meds are exacerbating the situation? Please help!

Oh, my age--I just turned 49 in February. Have probably had Lyme and co (Babs and others) since my early 20's.

Oh sweete, this is so hard to deal with! This isn't anything other than the LD/co doing what it does.

I am so sorry this is yet one more issue to rear it's ugly head. I am praying for you to endure and find peace.

This is a symptom I deal with, too. I haven't done anything that was with a bank, but what I find I've done a lot in the past is not remember what I've talked about. I'd say the same things to people sometimes 5 or more times!!! My kids finally started to say "You already told us that." Now I'll start a lot of conversations with, "Have I already said this?"

Dealing with the check issue would be scary!! I have found I've forgotten things I've done, too. I don't know how to get around this, other than praying. Hopefully others will have some suggestions.

Hang in there. We are here for each other, thankfully!

Soscared, I understand how you feel. An example: I filled up my gas tank Friday evening (I have the receipt) and Saturday afternoon, I get in my car and a 1/4 of the gas tank was used up!. No one else has access to my keys and the car is stored indoors. What happened to that 1/4 tank?

Would you be interested in trying something that might just hep you? If yes, read the article in the link below. It is research done by MIT that shows that magnesium L-threonate helps with this type of memory loss.

One other thing: I find it helpful to write down the things that I have to do and I cross them off when I do them. It ensures that I don't forget things and better yet, it fees up my mind about worrying if I did something or not. Believe me, you have no idea how much pressure and stress it removes from your mind. Just knowing that I forget things and that I might forget something important is enough to trigger anxiety and keep me up at night worried that I might have forgotten something. If you write things down, you will sleep better and be more relaxed during the day.

Here is the link:
https://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2012/feb2012_Novel-Magnesium-Compound-Reverses-Neurodegeneration_01.htm

Here is another one:
http://www.prohealth.com/library/showarticle.cfm?libid=16923

I'd think the symptoms would ease up some once the stress is less, but how much depends on the infection. I hope things will slow down for you to get the rest and peace you need.

My memory has been bad this past year, but has improved.

Oh my, I can relate to all these stories. It is very scary. There are times over the years where thse issue are worse and other fimes not as bad. I also was a good money manager, great credit rating and now that I lost a 20 year career infind myself wondering where the mobey went. I am still hopeful with proper treatment I will recover. Once the physical is improved I wonder how one recovers their emotions and self confidence after such an experience.

As another example I found, came to this websitlast Fall looking for info on lyme. I did a search and one of the threads got my attention, I read it and kept saying to myself "this sounds so much like my story". But the person wrote their age which was two years younger than me as of last Fall. After I finished reading I decided to look at the user name so I could find more of this persons posts since the story sounded so close to mine.

I was stunned when I looked at the username, it was me and I had created the thread over two years earlier. I had zero recollection of writing the thread or already being a member who had noted a number of times. Zero memory of being here, sharing anything. It stunned me and scared me that even after reading it I do not recall writing the thread.

Wow--it is SO scary having something like this happen. I keep reminding myself of the time I couldn't alphabetize in my early 20's. I tell myself that I went on to graduate summa cum laude, get my MA, and do many other things successfully. As I'm writing this, though, I've been awake since 2:30 a.m. (it's now 4:30). This can't be helping my memory, either.

Mystery--I'd been taking Ativan. But I'm also taking so many other things. Maybe the malarone is ramping up Babesia symptoms? I don't know. It's just scary.

I've been here. I've responded to texts from people and have had no memory of doing so. It's terrifying. Hasn't happened since beginning treatment though.