What can I do about
being too hyper, too impulsive, and having adhd-like symptoms (new to me since lyme) like hyper-focusing or distractibility?
I either focus on one thing to the detriment of productivity, or vice versa, jump around without getting anything good done. Some days, esp. when tired, I stay on the computer way too long.
I occasionally do things that are slightly stupid or dangerous, bc I have trouble controlling my impulses.
I talk too fast, and too much, and before I've had the chance to think things out, I blurt out the wrong thing!
I tend to be late, and I procrastinate out the wazoo. I even procrastinate about
doing good or happy things, bc I feel guilty about
not having been productive. Or, I procrastinate on being productive. I also procrastinate about
doing things that are good for my health.
Sometimes, I forget to take my pills, or I procrastinate, and then forget.
Paying bills is a big problem.
Then, sometimes I'm too productive, and don't relax enough or have enough fun. Or I do something that I consider to be fun, but it's a little risky.
I tend to be hyper most of the time, and I stay up way too late, unless I'm super tired. Then, I can't wake up in the morning.
I know this sounds stupid, but I write too much poetry. These poems clobber me at night, and I feel compelled to write them down instead of sleeping. I write these long poems that go on and on. I don't think they're bad, but it's just annoying. It's like I'm too creative.
Sometimes, I feel compelled to do all my cleaning late at night (instead of sleeping).
I tend to spend too much money, and my financial adviser says that he can tell by looking at my accounts whether I'm on treatment or not
I hardly ever stop being hyper though, even when I'm on treatment.
Chocolate and caffeine make this much worse. A little chocolate is ok, but when I binge (IMPULSES), forget it! Herxing also makes me worse. Can you tell I've eaten quite a bit of chocolate lately?
Anyone else experience these symptoms?
On top of everything else, I have circadian rhythm disorders, i.e. late-phase sleep disorders.
Even when I'm tired, I stay up too late bc I'm hyper-focusing.
Sometimes, I feel like a stupid idiot, unless I'm being really productive.
I have the feeling that my family and my neighbors all think I'm kind of eccentric.
Why do I do all these things, and why am I this way?
I think I need advice!
Margaret