A message

Hello everyone, I just wanted to share a message that might speak to you. I was looking through the cards at Trader Joe's and I ended up buying this card for me:

Outside:

We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
E.M. Forster

Inside:
Trust Yourself

This message spoke to me because I have always been a huge planner and successful. I was right smack in the middle of a nursing degree with a 4.0 GPA when Lyme hit me. Now, I forget words and have trouble with stairs. This has been the MOST difficult part of my journey. Having to say goodbye to my plans. But I truly believe there is something even more brilliant waiting for me in the future. I have to believe this because it pushes me to get better and to stay the course.

Lyme has hit me hard emotionally. I feel like I am a shadow of my former self. But, honestly, I can't wait to find myself again and darn it's gonna feel great when it happens. Even better than my previous experiences because this time around, I will Treasure it all the more.

I hope this message has spoken to you too and it has uplifted your soul in some small way. We will get there eventually. Trust yourself!

PS-On a side note, my 1st month Cowden protocol arrived in the mail today. I start tomorrow. I'm a bit nervous and excited to begin. I told myself this could be my answer. We will see. I'll keep ya'll posted!

Roxie,

I am so sorry to hear this. It is very disheartening and I feel for you. You are right, it is very scary. But I am learning to let go of my fear and just believe. Believe that I will be ok. For some reason, I was handed this card because I can overcome this and the next person couldn't.

I have some crazy belief that we are all dealt our cards because we can handle whatever has been given to us. Maybe I'll become tainted after years of trying, but right now this is my hope. And to be honest, I'd rather be dealt this condition vs something that has no treatment. As this was my diagnoses for the previous decade.

I am sorry your body and brain are kinda giving up. But do not give up on them! I told myself a few nights ago, "body, I am sorry for what you have been going through but now that I finally know, I will do what I can to get you better". This was during a meditation. Now that I write this, I sound a bit cuckoo, but I will continue saying this to myself.

we will get better Roxie. I want to hear your success story one day! BTW, We are on mino together. It's supposed to be good stuff. Keep us updated on your trial with it. Much success to you!

Post Edited (Leilex) : 7/11/2014 11:26:10 PM (GMT-6)