Thanks everyone. Just when you start to think you're turning a corner....
I'm a mess today.
You guys think the ANA, and the borderline Sjögren’s could both be due to Lyme?
I've (of course) been online reading a bunch of stuff, and it really scares me. I read that many times if you have one of these AI conditions you likely have another, and with some people they get a positive ANA result and it isn't until another 3-4 years that the ugly AI disease actually rears its ugly head, such as Lupus.
But, made me wonder if a lot of those cases might actually be Lyme.....? Left untreated, maybe...??
I read an article about
a doctor who believes almost all AI diseases are caused by Lyme or Lyme-like infections.
I'm just feeling very low... It's one thing after another. I'm 29, I have a toddler at home, I really wanted to have more children, and even if I can't, I want to see my only child grow up, I don't want to be in pain the rest of my life. I used to run marathons and now I have pain picking up my boy and walking around the house. I am having a hard time seeing an end in sight right now, and admittedly having a bit of a "pity party". I know many of you relate to what I'm going through, but it so difficult going from being an extremely athletic, hardworking, and outgoing person, to this. I get on this forum and I read your posts and I know I'm not the only person going through this, and though I don't want anyone to suffer as I am, it's somewhat comforting knowing I'm not alone. But then, I look at facebook, hang out with my family, my friends, my husband's family, and no one can relate, no one has ANY health problems, and they certainly don't understand Lyme and I feel like the lowest person in the world.... So alone. Even my grandparents and my husbands grandparents haven't gone through pain and health issues as I have. I don't want my little boy to loose his mom. Whether it be to death, or pain. I mention pain, because I'm afraid that I won't be the mom he needs if I am in constant pain... I try very hard and I think given the circumstances I've done a pretty good job. I could barely move on Easter but I got up and hid the Easter eggs, and filmed him running all over the house with a huge smile on his face, and though that's a great distraction at times, I watch the video of him on Easter morning and remember MY horrible pain, and how I wasn't "present". I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!
I'm very angry today, and though I tell myself all the time "it could be worse, don't feel sorry for yourself, you'll get better", I still find myself saying, "why!?!?!"
I hope we all get better. Sorry for venting. I want this to be over
Post Edited (Delmar) : 8/18/2014 10:23:34 AM (GMT-6)