really, really annoyed (vent)

Had a long day today. Farm chores then the 1 hour + drive to the supermarket to get food...which turned into a 3 hour event. Back home now. I wanted to shower, get warm and relax before going to bed....then my sister decides that 11pm is the best time to spring something on me. I. Don't. Do. Well. With. Surprises. She knows this, she just doesn't care since she always does this to me. The last time she sprung the news that the barn was flooding a lot, getting close to some of the babies....just before I was set to go in for a massage. Times like this I wish I was an only child.

One of her friends needs a place to stay for a couple weeks. What we talked about was this friend coming for a day to meet her, since I don't know her. Especially since I've had some horrible experiences with non-family living here. Well, other things have come up for this friend and its going to be too difficult for her to come for that meeting. So she's just gonna come and be here for the 2 weeks or a month...whatever it is, it keeps changing.

Just gotta suck it up and deal. Which has kinda become my motto recently. At least now I have enough control to bottle in the Lyme/bartonella rage that comes on. A month ago, I would have freaked out and started screaming at her. It just seems like my feelings never matter to her. I'm nothing. Invisible. I tell her how I feel, she shuts me down. I tell her I'll just suck it up and deal, she tells me I don't have to. Times like this I can't stand her.

And now I'm so amped up by this that its going to take me an hour or more to calm down so I can sleep. REALLY even more annoyed by that. I NEED my rest.

WHY couldn't I have been an only child?

My mom always tells me people can only take advantage of you if you let them

Hang in there.... Just walk away. The best way is not to confront and I have done LOTS of that with Andrew this year.

I can't find your blog about the snow from last week. I'm so sorry you were hit. When you spoke of Alpacas, I was thinking you were New Mexico or somewhere!

So, I have been in your neck of the woods and had friends there.

I worked in Portland and connected through Bangor to Carribou more than once. It really is so isolated and cold. I feel for you and have you in my prayers.