Severe Mood Swings

Does anyone else here have this problem? I feel like I belong in an insane asylum. I'm all over the place. It's mania. Seriously though- manic! I'm not myself at all.

I guess it started yesterday. I just felt really off and not like myself at all. I was doing my best to stay one step ahead of it. The panic attacks, anxiety, depression, thinking in circles.... YUCK! Today I woke up and it was too late for any interventions, I just felt totally crazy. As the day goes on it's getting worse, and it's almost scary.

I'm having intrusive thoughts, I can't control my impulses which are not normal at all. I feel paranoid and afraid. It's like I'm a completely different person altogether. I'm snappy and being just nasty. I'm trying not to let it show or take it out on anyone. But the thoughts that I'm having are just strange. I got angry because my back was hurting and it was time to get in the shower! I wanted to throw a tantrum! I told my fiance that these infections were controlling my life and I was just angry and I actually used the F word in front of my son. Which I NEVER do. I just freaked out.

This is all pretty hard to admit. And I'm honestly having a hard time writing it down. I'm struggling to remember how to spell and I keep having to go back. I'm typing things backwards like I'm dyslexic. I keep going to make a cup of tea and I get so caught up thinking about it 20 minutes later I haven't moved an inch. My pupils are different sizes and my brain feels hot. Literally like the inside of my head is warmer than the rest of my body.

I want to get away from myself :(

I wonder if when this happens it's a sign of herxing. Like a bunch of toxins got dumped into the bloodstream. Do you mostly pee and sweat out the toxins? How do they get out of the bloodstream?

My pupils have been different sizes off and on since way before I started treatment. I wasn't taking any medicines at all when it started.

I am treating for Bartonella right now. I have a pretty good idea of why this happening. Severe stress is a huge part of it. I've had some major set backs the last month. I guess it's just hitting me really hard.

I have an appointment coming up, and I'm sure my doctor will say that this is happening because of herxing. And stress. People always say you have to get your stress level down! But how do you do that? Especially when stressful things just continue happening one after the other. Time is my friend is these kinds of situations. The meantime just sucks.

And as far as detoxing goes for the die off reactions- sometimes it's just unavoidable. There is no possible way to get through treatment without it.

So. I'll just be stuck between a rock and hard place until this blows over. I think I'll come out of it and still be sane! Let's hope anyway!

Why doxy or mino? Are those two good for anxiety/psych stuff? I still have one more refill left for these two so I'm guessing my doc wants me on them for another month and half or so. Maybe he will add something in at the end of the month. I don't know if I could even handle it honestly.

I'm on azithromycin and rifampin.

Doxy and mino are good for treating lyme. They are both tetracycline class.

Azithromycin is a macrolide. It is also good for treating lyme.

I was on doxy first, then a month later added azithromycin to it. That combo is fairly commonly prescribed by LLMD's.

A well known LLMD in Seattle - who has a book on treatment - uses azithromycin and rifampin together for treating bart; he also uses minocycline and rifampin to treat bart.

I had those same symptomd and when I started with doxy they improved dramatically. You should mention doxy next time you see your LLMD. Hope you feel better!!