Still claiming to have won the battle against Lyme, but my pregnancy isn't viable.

So, this is where I stand everyone. I am in great shape, no symptoms except minor twitches, been off abx and herbs for 4 months, and so far so good! Do have some stories to tell with regards to what went on when I stopped everything, but I will provide that info once I post an update on my LLMD visit (which is supposed to be Wednesday)

On the downside, my current pregnancy is not viable, as it was confirmed today. This will unfortunately be my FIFTH miscarriage (holy moly), but I am always one to look on the bright side of things, I am so darn lucky to have 3 healthy kids!! My youngest is now practically a miracle, as she was born inbetween 4 miscarriages.

These miscarriages have absolutely nothing to do with Lyme - all chromosomal abnormalities. Don't know why - age, genetic issues, whatever the case may be, my husband and I are finally putting a real close on the doors of having any more kids. Yes, we wanted a big family, but we are reading the signs, and we will never look back and say we didn't try hard enough!!

I am only 10 weeks pregnant. Yes, it is a loss, but it just wasn't meant to be. God has His plans for all of us, and this was just a part of it.

Thanks for listening everyone, this forum is awesome. My hope is that after the DNC is done, I will recover, and get back to everything as it was before Lyme and before this. But you know what, things will never be the same - you know why, because thru all of the pain and suffering of lyme, including my kids having it - I am a different person, a stronger person, one with much more insight into things and stronger faith. I will exercise, get physically strong again, remain on this this forum, help as many people as I can who have lyme, and write my book!!!

Thanks Margaret, I grieved this weekend, believe me! Probably will again after the DNC, but I try to stay positive on the outside, b/c then it helps me be positive on the inside too =)

Thanks so much Pirouette!

As for exploring pregnancy again - thank you so much for the info and suggestion, but we are most certainly done. If I didn't have any kids, and was younger, then maybe I would look into it. I had miscarriages at 29, 33, 38,39, and 40. My aging may be part of the problem. I am turning 40 Friday (yes, its my bday week! but I am holding off the celebrations until this is all over). But I have decided to embrace my three little darlings (Teresa, 11, Patrick, 9, and Celine, 4) and instead of searching and searching for answers to have another, I am just going to have more time to love and enjoy them! =)

Chapelle... Sorry to hear about the loss. But Ya you are such a positive and strong person and at least you look at the bright side of things. You have 3 kids and a husband! And you beat Lyme! i think you have done a great job in life. I have 0 kids and no wife lol! We're all different though and live different lives. You seem like you won't have any trouble moving on.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your outlook is exemplary. I wish the very best for you and your family.

So sorry to hear about this latest development! (((hugs)))

May you remain strong and find peace as you deal with your loss and embrace the love of your family.

So very sorry for your loss. Children are indeed a blessing.

You mention that the miscarriages are due to chromosomal abnormalities so this may not apply, but when you have a chance, look into l-tyrosine and miscarriages. Seems that there is very frequently a connection between the two. Lyme and Co do impact the levels of l-tyrosine, sometimes you never know....

Chapelle, I'm so very sorry to hear of this!! No matter what the cause, miscarriages are hard! I lost two pregnancies, although mine were due to Lyme. The pain of the loss is there no matter the cause.

As many have said, you are a strong woman and will get through this, just know that your friends here are heart broken with you. And 3 healthy kids is quite a blessing!! I had 2 and hubby had 2, so together we have 4 and that's a big enough and happy family for me!! So I hope that you and hubby heal from this loss and recover quickly.

I also look forward to hearing about you visit with your LLMD!!

Sad news Chapelle!

Wow, what a roller coaster of emotions you've had these past few months. You are such a strong lady, and have made a wise decision.
Your husband and three children are so very lucky to have you in their lives.

I look forward to reading your book one day....

HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel your pain! More hugs and tears, hang in there is all I can say, it stinks.

Chapelle, there are no words...I'm so sorry for your loss. I was thinking of you a lot yesterday but didn't have the heart to write anything. :( I know the man (or woman) upstairs will fill your heart with something great and you always seem to have a wonderful open heart so here is hoping it comes sooner rather then later.

I'm just seeing your post tonight, since I haven't been on here in several days.

I'm so very sorry Chapelle. Prayers for peace to continue to fill you.

Chapelle, I am so sorry for your pain. You probably don't know me, but I know you well from this message board. And I admire your spirit.

If, at some point, you change your mind about extending your family, adoption could be an option. And I speak as the mother of a wonderful, loveable, handsome forty-something, adopted son and the grandmother of one of the most adorable children on earth.