No, it's not fair - not one bit! But you are in the same boat with a lot of really good people (us!
), and we are here to help you through this. It's not easy to wrap your head around having/living with these infections, but you're not alone.
Keep reading, posting and telling yourself that it's much better to have Lyme which can be healed and you can get your life back. Then you can be the amazing person you should be!!
Do you have someone to talk with, that can help you through this depression? Do you feel that you are 'just down' or actually depressed, as there are different approaches to each.
Do you have others that you can talk with? Know that most of the Mods (including me) are more than willing to accept emails and try to help out once in a while with talking. And maybe you can 'connect' with someone else here and be "Lyme buddies"- someone that you can lean on and offer words of support to during this time? I had a super one when I was in treatments!! We are still super close even now.