Emotional Herxes

I'm going through this right now. Irrational unrealistic thoughts that's throwing my whole outlook off on life and existence. It feels like some deep rooted depression that hurts to think about anything . It literally turns every thought into absolute negative no matter what it is. It's torture and you can't seem to shake it. It's not even panic attacks, just dread.

But like you I will have a string of good days and I'm back to my baseline and feeling somewhat decent.

BTW. I'm on mepron zithromax and bactrim so it's super harsh. It's torturous to say the least.

I'm trying to ramp up detoxing and taking a break but I'm still feeling this way. I guess the meds are still in my system.

i get really irritable days following my oxygen and sauna treatment

superj50 - I'm also on Mepron. Mepron, Flagyl, and Bacillin shots. Feeling so depressed, it scares me. I feel tired and wiped out all the time and just plain hopeless. I get scared that these strong medications are too much for me, but, then, at the same time, I want to fight this thing guns blazing. Everything about this experience is so contradictory mentally, it's like I have two voices going on at the same time.

Examples...

Voice One: It's just a bad herx. It means that the bugs are dying.
Voice Two: Clearly you are not actually getting better if you are still getting this sick as often as you are.

Or

Voice One: I definitely have Lyme and co's. Why else would I herx so badly and have the occasional symptom free day since starting treatment?
Voice Two: These treatments are crazy. It involves so many intense drugs and everything is so expensive. Maybe you don't have Lyme at all!? Maybe you are doing more harm than good?

Or

Voice One: This depression is just a herx.
Voice Two: Stop blaming everything on herxing!

Or

Voice One: I'm getting better!
Voice Two: Stop kidding yourself, you're no better than when you started treatment.

And so on, and so on, and so on....

Just feeling so hopeless.

Hi Lynn,

I'm sorry you're going through this. Are you taking a binder to help detox?

Something I noticed is that when herxing, it would bring up old emotional stuff I thought I had already gone through and dealt with. Weird, right? Writing morning pages, journaling, and tapping helped me get through it.

Morning pages: http://juliacameronlive.com/basic-tools/morning-pages/

Tapping: http://amybscher.com/energy-therapy-techniques/

You might want to check out Donna Eden's 5 minute energy routine too.
http://youtu.be/gffKhttrRw4

Keep posting, okay? We are here for you! xo