Oh hello Anxiety

One of my worst symptoms with my Lyme Disease these past horrible 5 years... Anxiety. It has creeped up on me again and I'm having a difficult time today and its only 9 am. I'm a busy stay at home mom and its hard to get through on days like this.. Anxiety + feeling off balance. My kids sometimes provide a good distraction from my symptoms however, and make me stay active and not sink into a depression on the couch.

Off balance, lightheaded, tingling in my face on left side and forehead, tingling in my back and maybe a finger or two, air hunger, overwhelming feeling on life... = me right now.

I started my B12 shots, probiotic and a nutritional supplement last week as per my LLND. We are first building up my immune system for a month then starting the herbs on Aug 5. I'm scared. I don't want to feel any worse. I don't want all my symptoms to reach over the top because it already feels that way at times. I'm scared about the Cowden herbs causing me low blood pressure issues and make me faint because I read this on a facebook group yesterday... I don't currently do not have blood pressure problems and I don't want to create any as I already feel lightheaded enough. I'm having anxiety about my high platelet count my LLND brought to my attention yesterday. Its not very high, 402 and normal is 150-400 but it is still high. I'm having anxiety about everything and feel like I don't know if I'll ever be ok or normal again.

I'm wondering if reading on the Lyme groups and forums so much is causing me more harm than good... but I want to be educated. But I feel like I would be better off not reading into every little thing and listen to my LLND that is very educated and positive about me getting better.

Sorry, long vent and me whining. Not feeling well.

It sucks. I know this has been a bad week emotionally for me too so probably making it worse. I was feeling a bit better with my Lyme symptoms after my B12 shot and starting on a healthy life style but the whole week was pretty bad with my family life. My husband has not been feeling well and a lot like me with my Lyme symptoms. He has felt like passing out, balance problems etc and not much of a help and I have been worrying about him. He has another doc appointment today and did a lyme test a couple weeks ago so will get results from that. I'm not sure what is wrong with him but part of me thinks Lyme disease...

My 9 year old daughter has been getting lots of headaches, tummy aches and last night she was dizzy... she sounds a bit like me. Her bloodwork and other tests normal thus far... so im thinking lyme maybe ugh. idk.

Been broke all week. The extra costs of my LLND appointments and treatments are hard. I have four kiddies at home because school is out for the summer and my toddler (2 1/2) has taken on yelling and being very loud/demanding to everyone and his siblings. He is going through the no sharing stage and everything is his! So DON'T touch it. lol

I wrote my boss last night on my newly diagnosed Lyme Disease (In May) and filled her in as to why I haven't been working. She had no idea I haven't been feeling well for 5 years now. I dropped down to a casual last October but told her because I'm busy with the family but really it was because I wasn't feeling well. I haven't worked in 6 months at all now and I've been worried about getting fired so I let her know I just found out I have lyme disease and I'm beginning treatment with a LLND. I asked her if there is a leave I can take until I'm feeling well to work again and it is going to be a long process getting better. I might be leaving the job entirely and going back in 1-2 years if I can work again. I don't know what she is going to say. I'm a personal support worker and help the elderly so I'm pretty sure she is going to be concerned about me ever working with the company again because I have balance problems.

Been worrying about starting the Herb treatment on Aug 5.

Everything is overwhelming me right now.

Jessica, I really feel for you! That's a lot of kids & personalities to take care while you're down multiple levels. Please keep posting here so we can lift you up!!

Just a few words/suggestions that may help:

1) Give yourself permission to not work in the field. You are doing the most important work now of taking care of yourself and your health! A lot of our identity is wrapped up in working so it can be very hard to let go of who we are as a worker, care provider, etc. It's vital to give yourself a break now, literally.

2) This is just me, but this HealingWell forum is the only place I visit consistently. Otherwise: Gloom & Doom.

3) Most of us are broke, this disease will drain funds something fierce! But the money you need will come: "The Universe Always Provides", as my mom used to famously say with 9 kids to care for. Just trust & believe & pray.

4) You ARE getting stronger right now as you build your immune system. You are going to get EVEN STRONGER once you start your protocol, stronger in ways you don't even know of yet. Try to flip the fearful thoughts into a simple wondering/amazement/looking forward to treatment. **I know this is really hard to do and can sound like the most annoying advice!!** When my mom was going to the cancer center to get chemo and radiation--all things that were TOTALLY against her belief system & outside her normal reality--she finally changed her approach by saying she was going down to the "Healing" Center to get "Radiant" It helped.

5) I just posted on the forum about a free guided meditation series that is online for the next 3 weeks. That may help with your anxiety. www.chopracentermeditation.com

Hang in there and keep reaching out! ((((((HUGS!)))))

Maui

I'll try to work on flipping the fearful thoughts into looking forward to treatment and feeling better.

I was experiencing horrible anxiety yesterday. I took a detox bath with the Epsom salts and hydrogen peroxide yesterday evening. I have to say, My skin was burning in my upper back and the back of my legs but right away but that was relieved with a tepid shower afterwards. My anxiety is completely gone today. I think the detoxing really helps with many symptoms, including anxiety.