Not so goofy sounding, PeteZa. Everyone here is part of my family. I just know some better than I know others.
I rarely say anything, but I tried to take my own life twice. Once I was a teen trying to live with these infections, the second time, I was a young mother with 2 very young children and in a failing marriage. There are always brighter tomorrows as long as we give ourselves a chance to have those tomorrows. We need time to change our circumstances, no matter what they may be, and we have to promise ourselves to give ourselves enough time to make those changes.
And I'm here any time you need to talk, Jsch. Email me first and we can set up a time to talk either through messing or even on the phone if necessary. Just don't wait until it's completely dire in your head and heart. Reach out when it's getting tough, it allows us the time to help before it gets dire.