Oh Carla, you have been through the ringer. I am so sorry. Time to take care of yourself and pampering is a requirement!
I had to learn to be super nice to myself and keep myself stress free. I had to learn to be patient - super hard for me. I had to learn to let some things go. It was okay to put a dish in the sink and not the dishwasher if I felt really ill. I had to learn to say "no" to invitations or to those asking me to help and volunteer. I had to protect ME and help me get well.
This article was given to me by Traveler when I first arrived. Gosh was it helpful and now I pass it on to you.
www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/