Day 9 of abx, Bart, and emotions...help

Will try to make this simple but sorry if it seems abrupt...feeling very drained and fatigued today.

I know this was probably asked and answered but I can't remember or find it: do co-infection symptoms last longer than the lyme symptoms during treatment or do they just seem to be worse because they are not being treated? I'm just doing abx for treatment of Lyme; my arthritis seems better but other symptoms of coinfection seem worse and more frequent. Which leads me to my next question:

Does anyone know of a detailed symptom list for Bart? When I read online lists, it doesn't necessary match with my symptoms. When I compare symptoms with others who have Bart, it seems like I do. My feet burn at times and I need to sleep with ice packs, my shin bones feel like they are being jammed into my knees and my kneecaps feel like they are going to pop off, I have a pain in my ribs that doesn't seem to be related to anything else, memory problems, balance problems, and fever/swollen glands.

Finally, I feel like an emotional disaster. My relationship ended yesterday, which is fine because it was amicable and I just don't have the time or energy to put into it right now. I know I'm sad without feeling sad, if that makes sense. When I feel like crying, I can't. When I do cry, I don't feel anything. It's weird. I feel very flat, like I'm somewhere else entirely. Is this a Lyme thing?

First of all, I'm so sorry that you are dealing with so much. Sounds like you also have depersonalization/derealization as well. That's like loosing the ability to be 'in touch' with yourself, and likely why you don't "feel much" about the relationship ending, or that crying actually helps in any way.

Here are two rather extensive Bartonella symptom lists:
www.personalconsult.com/posts/bartonella-checklist.html


www.gordonmedical.com/unravelling-complex-chronic-illness/bartonella-like-organisms-blo-consideration-signs-and-symptoms/

So sorry you are feeling so flat. Bacteria, fungi, and viruses can really cause us to become so much unlike ourselves. It can be emotionally and physically draining. Are there bumps in the road to healing? Yep, sometimes HUGE ones that can knock you on your butt, but we get up, dust ourselves off, and keep on plugging away.
Hang in there!