Having a Bad Day

Hi friends,

I could use a pick me up. Without meaning to sound overly dramatic, I am so scared and feel like I'm dying. I went on vacation with my husband and I'm alarmed with how skinny I've become. There's nothing to me and I can't wear shorts or t-shirts because I'm embarrassed of my sticks as arms and legs. I eat and eat and eat but can't gain. I'm so scared, I don't recognize the person in the mirror. I just don't know what to do. I've been to dozens of specialists and been told that I'm stressed or that " you think you eat but you don't!". My LLMD says he sees patients with weight loss, but I would think I'd have more GI issues. I'm so afraid. Can anyone sympathize? I feel so alone. I'm sorry to complain, my mind is racing and I don't know where to turn Thank you for reading. xo

I also can relate. Yesterday, although I skipped family dinner because of nausea, some family members stopped for a visit. They were alarmed when they saw me.

It's temporary, I'm looking forward to the days of having some beef on the bones. Don't stress, it only hinders your recovery. Xoxo

Back when I first got sick I saw numerous specialists and they had no answers for me. I was floxed (Levaquin toxicity with symptoms very, very similar to Lyme and co-infections) during this time and was blaming it on that and they all thought I was nuts. Anyway, in 2012 I started Lyme treatment after doing the Igenox testing. Saw more specialists to rule out possible other problems. Nothing!!!!! Thank goodness my insurance paid for those bills.

I have lost so much weight but I blame that on avoiding sugars, carbs, gluten and dairy. Right now I have no appetite which is not good. Have you added up your caloric intake for the day? Are you on a special diet? I am looking forward to eventually putting back some of this weight. I am not throwing out my bigger clothes any time soon.

I am scared, too. Just keep in contact with the forum as that does help. I sometimes ask stupid questions (sometimes repeating myself) but the mods have been great.

Here is another big hug for you. HUG

Patty

While my body's preferred mode is to gain weight, I went through a period of time (about 3 years) where I couldn't gain weight no matter what I did. I ended up 35 lbs underweight, but I had completely lost my appetite and couldn't eat much at a time, so at least I had something to work with - eating more, and I did, slowly.

For those that are losing weight, add up your calories you get in a day and make sure you get enough. There are some good food journals out there - find one that makes sense to you. I liked the online version, as I was having to send it in to my doc monthly (/www.myfitnesspal.com/).

Keep trying to eat, even just a couple of bites, many times a day.

Look for those snack that you can add more calories to by adding an avocado, nut butters, protein powder or anything that will increase your calories in a healthy manner. I used to add protein powder to my nut butter - sort of odd at first, but I got to where I nearly looked forward to it because it went down easily.

BeKindPls cyber hugs to you......

It will get better. I was one that gained. Ate like a bird and gained. Go figure. My metabolism just left me high and dry.

I lost for a few months when my anxiety was high, but then that mellowed and up went my weight.

You will get back to normal.