Feeling better, but bummed out

Hi All - After about 9 months of treatment for babesia and lyme, I've been at consistently 95% for about 3 weeks except my mood is terrible. I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm just emotionally volatile. I'm still on antibiotics and herbs, so nothing in terms of my treatment has changed.

During the darkest times of lyme, I definitely had intense bouts of depression and anxiety, but I thought that once I felt good, I would be elated.

There are still things that I have had to give up for lyme (long distance bike riding, a regular yoga practice, highway driving) that I'm scared of bringing back into my life for fear of relapsing.

So where are these feelings coming from? Am I still grieving what I've lost and trying to come to terms with what has been an awful, terrifying experience? I just don't get it.

I'm wondering if anyone has faced these counter-intuitive healing feelings.

Thanks for your support.

Hi Traveler - Thanks for your response. I just feel so unthankful for feeling better!

I'm not sure what you been about anti-inflammatories (which means I'm probably not taking them!) Can you give me an example?

Thanks for the anti-inflammatory suggestions.

Since I've been feeling better my detox has dropped off....I'll step that back up....!

thank you!

boston i get the same feelings also when i'm feeling better and its not inflammation. i think we think when we're sick and feel better we're going to be so elated and nothing will bother us and we'll be walking around with a permanent smile on our faces but it doesn't necessarily work that way.

when we feel better we get a chance to focus more on the life we've either lost or has been seriously diminished. that can make us angry, depressed, anxious, etc. there is also the thought always there in the background that these pathogens are going to rear their ugly heads again and take us to that dark place. no one can say for sure this won't happen which brings not the greatest thoughts into our heads.

I would still suggest that people try adding an anti-inflammatory. Inflammation in the brain can cause all sorts of issues - including intrusive thoughts.

Being 95% healed made me anxious just like you are. I knew I was getting better, but was so afraid. Hang in there and keep on eating properly and detoxing... There really is a grief process when we heal. Also I had post traumatic stress. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop. The fear of every little twitch in my body. Even when I had no symptoms, I was afraid to stop my meds. I did not want to start all over.

I so understand where you are coming from.