So now for the physical stuff:
I will copy a comment I made on another thread:
"My acupuncturist actually saw me while I was in the middle of one of these [Babesia panic] attacks. I was horribly agitated and could hardly lay down because it felt like my chest was going to collapse in itself. What ensued was almost a two-hour exorcism... it was crazy. As she put needles in, things started flowing and my body just went nuts, sobbing uncontrollably, gasping for air, shaking with chills, drenched in sweat, coughing, crying, gasping, over and over.
But what I loved about
it was that FINALLY someone could SEE my invisible illness. All those sleepless panicked nights that doctors tell us are in our heads, that people don’t understand because “you look great!”, that make you think you are going crazy... all came out in the doctors office instead of alone in my bed at night. I had someone holding my hand, telling me I was brave and a fighter, validating my condition, and I was able to let it out without worrying about
not sleeping, waking up or worrying my husband, or any pressure. Just let it OUT. Though my body was convulsing I felt so PEACEFUL that this was no longer just the battle in my body, someone else saw it and was forced to address it. It was like getting that big +++ diagnosis.
So when I’m panicking, I mentally take myself back to the table and the peace I felt. I make my dr reassure me every time I’m there that my symptoms are herxing and healing, I’m making progress and the battle is me killing IT, not killing ME. Herbs have helped tremendously. There’s a tea powder that takes away the panic- I still have heart palps and insomnia and air hunger, but instead of crying and fretting about
it, I just brush it off as annoying while I read or draw or otherwise occupy my mind waiting for it to pass. But it’s specifically for my body, situation, and progress and only thru a TCM practitioner so I unfortunately can’t recommend it to anyone else, otherwise I’d shout if from the hills."
After they saw THAT experience and really understood the severity of my condition, we adjusted my herbs and protocol.
The first herx I noticed was horrible fatigue. Absolutely crushing. I was down every afternoon and in a delirious fog the rest of the day. That finally lightened up in about
10-14 days, with a few decent days in between.
The horrible sore throat that randomly appeared after a session continues two weeks later; it only lasts one night, then is diminished by morning. It flares up every two or three days. Definitely something working itself out in the treatment. Just got another flare during my last session. It doesn't come with other flu symptoms, just the sore throat that starts in the late afternoon and gets awful by nighttime. Warm salt water gargle and a little honey are the best I can do to soothe it - being sensitive to the corn in every cough drop or spray. It's possibly a post-nasal issue, because I can feel a little something dripping down the back, and sometimes the next morning my nose will run a lot, but not always.
Next my depression and anxiety got awful. The Gan Mai Da Zao Tang tea helped keep it tolerable (like I was anxious, but not distressed about
it, just annoyed) but when I ran out, all hell broke loose. A lot of crying, a lot of worry. A lot of positive/negative thoughts racing through my mind battling for dominance. But I'm back on it now, and feel much better.
All my old symptoms are popping up briefly. Sometimes it's just a flare of joint pain, a headache, jaw ache, stabbing eye pain, for literally a few seconds, then its gone. Every few days. Insomnia is back, but it is less distressing. The air hunger and chest pressure appear mildly every few days.
Again, I feel like all the herxing and fighting are going on, making me sick of course, but I finally feel like my body is fighting and expelling IT, instead of IT attacking and controlling my body.
My bowels are happy. Super happy. My only stomach problem is mild bloating from the wheat in the tea. No more constipation, no more cramps, no more nausea. Regular as a Japanese train. Love love love love being off antibiotics!
Post Edited (BabsBunny) : 7/29/2018 1:27:49 PM (GMT-6)