Going back to your old self automatically vs the old Lyme mindset

This was kind of funny. Still for the last three years of being “cured”, I still think before doing something physical. Not today lol. I went to the city (prob looking like a visitor too) with my eye on the bus at the stop and my watch telling me it’s time for it to take off soon. With cell phone and backpack, I broke out into a two block sprint like forest gump hauling arse down his long gravel driveway. I got to the bus stop huffing and puffin, then noticing there were two busses, the first took off and I hopped on the second one which was early and sat fifteen mins. I ran for nothing lol. Then I thought I’ve never just done that w/ o thinking for the last Ten years.

EDIT: my "run and go for it" was an automatic response, which is the point I'm conveying here.

Of course, just being able to run a short distance is nice too, (which i've been able to do for a few years now). That said, I could not even ride a bike at all without pain about five years ago. Running was also out of the question then. I remember trying a slow jog and in 75-100ft, I knew it was a painfully bad idea.

The "Lyme mentality" is finally leaving me.

I;ve been working on stuff/ making room in the garage today, fall organizing - as the cold air seems to be moving in ahead of "regular schedule", and I feel pretty limber.

running wild said...
That is great to hear about you and provides hope for others. There are times when it feels getting better is not possible. Did you ever get to that point, Astroman?

Yes, after a five month herx on ABX.....And befor abx when I woke nearby blind in 08 .

I get winded from squats.

Haven't gone through the long mega-Herx that I need to do yet.

Great to hear you have recovered/are in remission.

I wrote that on the bus last night sitting there kind of surprised at what I just did.

Then in town, I walked around town prob a mile or so checking out some Labor day/ end of summer festivities for a few hours. Then back on the bus for a while, then drove home the rest of the way, and still felt pretty good. For added pain insurance before bed, I did some late night cross friction/motion hard foam rollering on the legs/hips flexors and lacross ball stuff for the glutes.

Got out of bed after seven hours and moved really well. My foot that ive been fixing for two months felt really good, a change from just standing or walking on it.

I have not run or sprinted since the last deep snowfall last April - doing my short snow sprints (only 25-50 yards at a time depending on snow depth and feel) at the local ball-field/park, and there's nothing jarring about that, just smooth resistance vs concrete running I just did.

Even if I could run across America like Forest Gump did, its certainly not in any of my future plans!....(ha ha).

Note:I try to use the word "cured" carefully as to not jinx myself and also while acknowledging that i'm still healing some parts.

Post Edited (astroman) : 9/3/2019 1:43:53 PM (GMT-6)

Nice story!
I really fight hard with lyme/cfs mindset, but its soooo hard to do it all the time in real life and real time.

Thoughts that jump before every activity...I can handle it? It's not much? It cause PEM for next day?

It's best to keep your head busy...dont be single, more friends around. Or listen good music, watch nice movies...
Only this help me with my mindset.
Defenitely one of hardest things which to do and keep.