Aerose91 said...
Saraeli-
Thanks for your kind words. Firstly- my sleep hygiene is really good. No artificial lights at all after sundown, only some red if I'm reading something. I also try meditating during periods of wakeups (which ends up being all night) but I can never get into a zone- my body is too worked up. I'm just riddled with anxiety.
I cant exercise because the exercise intolerance is too bad but my circadian rhythms are on point. I get hours of sun every day, especially first thing in the morning.
I tried CBD, didnt help. Actually made my brain feel more shut down.
I did recently restart DNRS, I had sort of forgotten it for a bit. I encounter a couple problems currently. One is the level of my derealization. Its horrendous. A side effect t of this is that I cant feel anything. No emotions, feelings, presence, time... nothing. As awful as it is, it doesnt allow me to see through the DR. Its like a world you're stuck in.
The other problem I encounter is what you mentioned- I spend a lot of time so upset over this and seeing where my friends are at in life that I am often comparing or in a crappy mood because I'm down. Never sleeping just makes that worse. On top of it there are a LOT of things I want/wanted to do in my life and when I got sick at 26 I hadn't even scratched the surface on the meaningful parts of my life. It's nearly impossible for me not to think of those and all that's been lost. Very hard. And again, not sleeping exhaserbates everything.
Sorry for droning here, I just had a rough night and a difficult day. Sometimes I just have to put it out there. Thanks a lot for chiming in.
I know what you are going through. I also got sick at 26 (now 32), and had really bad sleep disturbances as you describe. They are called Hypnic Jerks and are a real PITA. I guess a minimal amount are acceptable in the healthy population and I do remember getting some before I was sick, but just not near as frequent. I would go to bed at 9pm only to jerk myself awake at the onset of sleep until 3 or 4 in the morning when I would finally fall asleep, only to hear my alarm clock go off at 6am. It’s the worst. Pain is fine and manageable, but sleep deprivation is just not fair.
Anyway, they are pretty much gone. I still get them but very infrequently. They seem to come in waves when I do (2-3 nights in a row, maybe 3-4 jerks each night), and do coincide with stress and anxiety I have noticed. I just kept on treating with abx and they eventually got better. Not certain there is a magic bullet. Try to relax before bed and take a bath and when you do jerk, don’t freak out and try to resume sleep, no matter how frustrating. One thing I have noticed is they are more common when I try to nap. Probably related to sleep schedule irregularities as well because I don’t nap that often.
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