How did you deal with loosing your loved one ?

You are not a monster. The disease is the monster.

Your situation is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for the physical and emotional pain you are going through. I know how horrible it is to try a treatment that makes you worse, and I definitely have thought my partner and child would be better without me in their lives, when I have been very ill. I'm so sorry that it got to the point that you felt you needed to live apart from them.

It makes complete sense that you love your family and feel anguish without them. Do you have other relatives and friends in your life who can support you? This is not something you should be going through on your own. Do you have a helpful doctor? A therapist? Human connection is something that most people need, and I hope that you will reach out for support, for physical help as well as emotional connection.

In my experience, people do not get better when they are miserable emotionally. Obviously we're all upset by being ill, but if there are other variables (like separation or rejection by loved ones) then that stress can cause symptoms by itself (regardless of Lyme status). I hope that you can find some connection to calm your nervous system and allow healing to take place. You are carrying heavy burdens right now!

I won't brainstorm treatment options because I know that's not what you are asking for, but I want to say that there are so many things to try, even for those of us who feel like we have tried everything. There is more life waiting for you, beyond this terribly difficult time.

Sending healing energy and a big hug!

Wow, what an answer !
I left my house because I was so sick and in pain I cry all day long and my ex partner became angry with me. He was just so tired of all of this and didnt consider me as a woman, just a sick body. I will never do anything bad to my children or any people.

Right now my LLMD is desperate about me, he didn t know what to do with me o n monday during our phone consult..
I lost all of my " friends" in the last few weeks, and my best friend who said me she will never left me doesn t answer the phone for 5 weeks now.
I have just a wonderful lymie friend who is a sort of wonder woman.

My father left me in June because he is totaly crazy with a younger woman and he just thinks I am crazy.
I know we can t get better with a brain full of crap but as you said, human interactions are important and I can t go out of my appartment, so I see my friend just one or 2 times a week and I call her when the situation is unbearable.

English is not my native langage, sorry. It is hard to formulate my ideas but you have very well resumed the human state. All of my supposedly friends are people who can t care about someone like me, because it means to go out to the unicorns country.

I feel very guilty about this disease and to not be able to care my children, and I think I couldnt bear to see my loved ex partner with another woman. It wiĺl be the end for me.

I know we have to be resilient, but with an unbearable physical pain, I am not able to be.

Hi destiny,
If you don't mind me asking, what type of treatment(s) did you receive to relieve your nerve pain? Thanks.

bullekid. if only you could break the pain cycle for a bit ?! do they have kratom there or is it legal? it works for about 5 hour relief ,dont over do it'll make u jittery if u do . can u build or buy a plasma rife? can u get allimax or andrographis whole?

know u arent alone , on the relationship loss it takes two to make or break it .i watched the stephen hawking movie (theory of everything) with my partner and at the end i begged for them to choose a different life and different partner .. she informed me later it wasnt my choice to make alone . i certainly couldn't trust my own emotions or brain . im glad i had holy basil and tramadol or i too would be in a dark place . all it take is a match to light a whole room though. find your spark , as ur life may depend on it dear bullekidambule