Feeling hopeless & confused

Is this the site that doesn’t let us talk about doctors? Because I could really use some help finding someone who knows what they’re doing. I have a LLND, but she’s relatively new and I feel like every time I talk to her she has new and conflicting information for me. One minute all my symptoms are bartonella, next minute they’re bebesia, now this one supp I swore by is old news and here’s a new one… I am starting to doubt her competency, which is a real bummer. I have been with her for over 2 years and was seeing improvement; I took a break due to pregnancy & postpartum and now all my symptoms are back. Namely pretty bad depression, memory loss, brain fog, mood swings, migraines/headaches, and really bad fatigue again.

I feel like I don’t trust my doctor to help me & I also don’t have the motivation to even help myself. I only want to eat junk food. I don’t have the energy for exercise. I can’t stand the idea of taking a million pills every day, especially when I never seem to feel any benefit from the supplements. Antibiotics make me herx but I at least take that as a sign that they’re working, so I’ll keep taking them. Supps seem to have no impact on me so I feel like they’re just an overpriced waste of my time and I can’t be bothered to take them.

Sorry for the long rant/*****ing…
I’m just really struggling. I hate feeling the way I do, but I can’t be bothered to help myself either. I don’t know where to find a doctor I can trust who also takes insurance. I don’t know that I can even trust any doctor honestly, since it all sounds like such a guessing game. It feels hopeless since everyone is on a million treatments that make them feel sick and they never seem to be actually cured or even in remission. How does anyone get through this? I’m sorry 😞 I feel so defeated.

Hi mitchkay,
I agree with Garzie, but if you will email me, I will share some doctors names and addresses with you that are Lyme literate in private to get around the issues with sharing them in public. We just really want to protect our doctors, it wasn't that long ago, they were losing their licenses/having to move to another state or just giving up because they were being persecuted simply for acknowledging and treating these infections like the problem they really are. Fortunately, things are changing, but it's slow and we still want to protect our doctors.

As for exercising, start small. A short, easy walk, some bed yoga (that's how I started), or other really easy ways of just getting a bit of exercise. A new mom - can you get into warm water therapy? I used to love that, even though I couldn't keep going for it.

Do be sure your water intake is as high as you can manage. Adding lemon to it will not only help with drinking a lot of water, but will help push your body into a slightly more alkaline than an acidic state, which is where we need to be for healing.

How about a few minutes of alone time? If you can get that, some dry skin brushing will help move lymph and helps skin to stay healthy. Skin detoxes too - it's the largest organ in the body, so by dry skin brushing, we help create a situation so that the skin can better get into the detoxing too. And, as I said, it helps to move the lymph along, which is how the body first 'captures' toxins to usher them out of the body

Those are just a few things, that really will only take you a few minutes a day, and will help you in a couple of different ways, hopefully!

Hang in there!
Trav =)