Hi Coco, I have been reading posts on here for an eternity. Your post triggered me to reply. I totally sympathise with you. There have been episodes where I have come so close to getting a kitchen knife to cut my leg so I can feel pain somewhere else. Sounds crazy I know.
I think every person on here with long term headache & migraine pain has felt what you are at some time.
I know I have, and I've cried at the thought of leaving my children and knowing that no one will take care of them, so I have to keep going. I chose to bring them into the world, they are my responsibility. The brave face is hard.
If only migraine was taken more seriously. I too as another poster said have envied the lives of people who bounce around happy without a headache.
I have daily headaches that range in pain, but migraines wreck me. I am totalled and useless and wish for the end. I get between 4-10 a month. The worst around cycle time, but stress is a killer for me. Most of the time all the medications just don't cut it and sleep is the only thing that ends the pain. That is, if I can get to sleep. I am cringing right now at the thought of a migraine, the headache I have is bad enough. I can't function at all with a migraine. I don't know how others do. I can't even see. My eyes water heavily, my nose blocks on my left side where the pain is, the throbbing pain is excruciating and I can hardly lift my head up. If I cry I make it worse. If I can evade vomitting I am doing well. I've pulled my hair out of my head, by accident as pulling on it takes a tiny bit of pressure off, just trying to get relief. I often get delirious. I have gone into shock.
Coco, I hear you. This forum is a lifesaver. Let's hope one day there will be an end to this pain. Meanwhile we all have each other :)
Post Edited (brookesmum) : 6/12/2011 11:14:18 AM (GMT-6)