Hello , my name is _Inf, and I am 29 years old. I have had migraines since I was ten years old.(undiagnosed until I was 19) and I also suffer from bi-polar disorder. I feel as though I have tried everything to rid myself of these nightmarish head pounding frustrations,and now with the loss of my job, on top of this sickness that compels me every day to scream at the birds chirping outside my window, I am ready to throw in the towel.
I have tried a list of drugs:
Prophylactic: Propanolol, Metoprolol, Topimax, Valproic, Amitryptiline.
Abortive: (every tryptan available in Canada) I use Relpax to dull my migraine attack, but there is no abortion.
And name the painkiller, I like that game, hate the rebound.
I've even tried botox, 31 injections in my forhead and scalp. (O is that fun, still waiting to feel my forhead muscles again)
I've tried the pin pokers, the bone crackers, the muscle kinkers.
I've even tried buddhism.
But nothing has worked! Nothing! And the frustration is so thick and palpable I just can't stand another minute of it. Every day is the same, if I do not wake up with rebound, I wake up with that ever growing aura, the light is just too bright, sounds annoy me, simple sounds like the clock tick-tick-ticking on the wall will drive me into a rage, because everything has to be silent and still , or else the ever flow of my guts will commense, and then it's hugging the porcelain God for the rest of the day.
Tell me what kind of life is that?