about me

Well, in 2005 my tongue went numb. I went to the Doctor and they did a MRI to make sure I was not having a stroke.

MRI came back with bright white spots in multiple places and I was told to go to a Neurologist at a near by hospital the Dr could not tell me the results.
I had a friend go with me who was a nurse because I was afraid I would not understand what the Dr said.
He came in and in a very nonchalant manor told me that I may have MS but that I needed to have all kinds of expensive tests to
rule out other things first. I did not have any insurance and he told me that he wouldn't write anything in my chart about it and that I should
get some insurance quickly.

I very vividly remember asking him what I could do and he said nothing.

I am a very strong Bible believing miracle believing Lover of the Lord Most High creator of heaven and earth. I purposed in my heart that day
to trust God and believe that He made me perfectly and that He could take care of whatever was happening with me.

I have had an extremely stressful last 2 years I went thru a divorce and moved back home with my daddy from my home of 17 years.

After quite a bit of thinking about my life I have been able to pin point several incidents over the last at least 15 years that could be
symptoms of MS. I remember having extreme pain/numbness in my left arm and arm pit to the point of calling my nurse friend to ask her if I was having a heart attack.
I really don't remember how long it lasted I guess several weeks at a time. At one point my entire left side went numb. My feet and toes are always numb.
I have also on and off had numbness/pins and needles over various parts of my body.

Then the numbness in the tongue and face came and went. No other things happened new. In the last year, I guess with the stress of everything that I have been thru I have noticed multiple new things. First a general feeling of unwellness. My head feels foggy and weird. My arms and legs feel like they are coated with concrete or like I have on a body suit of metal. I have had bouts of dizziness on and off. Something else that is more aggravating than anything else if having a jumpy muscle around my eye or on my thigh.

I have a very high stress job (that I am trying to get out of) and after a very busy/high incident day I am just bone tired and sometime feel like I cant make it home.

I have not been to a Dr again in ref to the MS possibility and I haven't ever told anyone about it or what is going on with me now.
I think one of my questions is..

If I do not want to take any type of drug for this why would it be important for me to go to a DR for an official diagnosis?
Other than peace of mind to just know?

I found this site by accident while googling heavy arms and legs.

Maybe I needed to tell someone about my experiences, maybe I need to hear other peoples opinions about my issues but I think mostly I need to feel not crazy and understand the physical issues I am going thru.

I feel very tired of it all. Without my trust in the Lord I am not sure I would have made it this far or this long.

Thanks for listening. Thanks for posting any replys and thanks for being strong in who you all are and in what you are going thru in your own experiances.