Sorry been away...just have been resting and not feeling the greatest. Its still an accumulation of everything....I am making my app for the Rheumatologist this week as my joint pain is not any better and as the days go on and my patch gets closer to being changed the swelling and pain gets worse. Also, I have been so worried about
my pouch that I have been settingmy alarm and getting up every 3 hrs all night long and not sleeping well at all as it takes time to get back to sleep. My pouch is working....I have had a couple episodes in the last week where it has been really full and I get nauseated putting the tube in and then puke about
30 min later....its just not healed and grown to the size it needs to be which i know will take a good 3-4 months. I soent a lot of the weekend sleeping and I attempted to go out to dinner Fri to celebrate my SIL getting a new job and visit with some friends from Texas. I got to my inlaws shortly after dinner with everyone and they continued to drink and party and socialize and I was just in pain from my joints and fell asleep at 95 pm which is not like me. My MIL said she thinks my color has gone again from my face and that I looked thinner and kinda grey and dehydrated. I am drinking good, but still only peeing twice a day, but last time I had my labs drawn everything was ok as far as I know. I asked for a copy, but they would not give me one for some reason. I see the pain clinic doc and mypcp does notwant to keep up my pain meds until I see him. I have one patch left and so I have no idea what I am going to do as without it I cannot bend my fingers and my left hip primarily can not walk well when the pain patch wears off....I think though if I go in and see him he will understand as he has known me and knows I never ask for pain meds unless I need them. Also, I think its just an accumulation of the last 2 years and 4 surgeries and never fully recoering and being so sick that this recovery has been the hardest for me overall. With all the complications and how ill I was going into it I can barely get through 2 hours on my feet without draining any ounce of energy I have and color and then the joints kick in and I feel so weak and tired. When I was in the ER Tues the doc said I appeared so sunken and dehydrated. They have just done basic labs so maybe something else is deficient in me and causing me to feel the way I do still. I am so lucky my long term disability was approved and they have been so nice telling me that they will just check in every 3 months to see how I am in terms of going back to work. As of now, I cannot even think of it.....I could never get through a day at work in this shape. I have no idea when I am going to just catch a darn break.....but I take it one day at a time, stay positive and do my best. I miss all you girls so much and Rosemary I am so glad you are back and that you had a wonderful trip.
Lori- I was crying telling my hisband about your letter Fridayon our way to dinner as we started out for our original ileos about the same time and I know how difficult things have been for you and we were both in counseling together. He was concerned for you as well as your husband, but like you all we did much research before deciding to go for the kpouch, which I was told my many doctors not too go for and just to go for the ileo. Its so hard to make that decision, but I truly believe that you are in the best hands possible and that Dr Wexner is an amazing surgon, but I also agree with Rosemary that to ease this insomnia, frustration, fear, etc that you need to call him and have a one on one converation and ease you mind about the letter. The info relayed may not be different, but it may just be better hearing it out of his mouth and like I asked Dr. Dietz "Are you confident in doing this surgery or do you feel I am going to be worse off and should just stay with the ileo"......reassuring yourself with him and his confedence that he is doing this because he thinks you ar ready may help you through these upcoming weeks as you need to stay as string as you can emotionally and physically befoer this surgery. You need your nutrition at its highest level as well as your mind which is so powerful in healing. I pray that you can call and have this conversation, meet with your therapist and have a better mind frame sweetie. I am right hear for you anytime you need me....
Janie- I am glad you went to the ER and that Rosemary was there to force you on in....everyone in my family has had it and more than once and I spend all day with my mom at home and at first I thought I had the flu with aches, nausea, etc, but now it is going on three weeks and know it is something more going on in my body. If you still feel weak go back in and get some more fluid sweetie....without that darn colon you need to never wait (I am one who needs to take my own advice) and get in there once you start feeling so weak. I think of you so often and hope your doing better....keep us posted love.
Rosemary (mother hen)- So good to have you back. I am so glad you were able to get as quick of help as you did while on vaca as that is scary. I am glad they took such good care of you. I feel I get even more dehydrated with this new surgery and I am not sure if this is because of the manipulation of my small bowel and the use of it in the pouch, etc. I have no idea what is going on with me, but part of me thinks its just a very slow slow recovery for me and the other part knows something is just off. I always know it is, but it seems to take so long to surface. Its as if I am having some type of immuno response to something???AHHHH O have no idea. Well back to your case....keep us posted. Its still so much for me to understand, but all I can do is pray that you get the results you deserve and those doctors get what they deserve. You are so strong and so needed on this site as you can see....
Tracy...how are you doing honey? You need to show Rosemary thse pics of your belly and she, like me, will tell you just how bad you need to be having surgery intervention or something done soon!!!!
Thinking of everyone else.....worried about Hodaya (is she without a computer????), Amey, Judy, and everyone else that has not been on in a while. Hopefully they are all doing well. Love to you all, my family.
Lizzie