Hi, I'm posting on this board because right now I don't know whats wrong with me. I only know what I want to avoid. I thought I'd share my story here and maybe get some feedback, because right now I'm completely alone. I'm a 24 year old guy and I'm very poor. I live with my dad, who lives off SS and a small navy disability pension. I don't have insurance or a job and it seems like even basic care is out of my reach.
As for whats wrong...I'll start from the beginning, as I feel it's important to understand how things have gotten the way they are. These are admissions I haven't and probably won't make to my family. For about
4 years I have been afflicted with a fetish for "Belly Inflation". If you don't know what that is, just go on youtube.com and do a search with those words. It boils down to using air and water enemas to make the belly look distended. Myself, and a lot of others I think, don't really know where to stop. I stopped only when I thought I may have hurt myself. Since March I have been officially 'inflation free'. My memory gets a bit hazy about
exactly when, but I noticed that I was becoming distended and bloated feeling and stools became less frequent. Then, about
6 weeks ago I became completely constipated. I never felt like that in my life, and it was a really horrible feeling. I felt pressure in my chest, sides, everywhere. I finally performed a regular water enema to clear myself out even though I swore I'd never stick anything up my rear again. Then for a few weeks now I got on this revolving door where I take a stimulant laxative like Sennosides, clear out, feel normal for a couple days, then slow down and stop up again. I started doing my homework, learning what constant use of a stimulant laxative can do. I got scared and cut everything out and just waited. I made it about
5 days before I felt so constipated I couldn't stand it. I went into the ER and the doctor there did a physical exam where he tapped my belly, listened to my gut, ect and a X-ray. He told me that I was constipated all the way up to where the colon crosses the front of my belly and mentioned my Liver looked enlarged. He said I 'sounded fine' and didn't feel any abdominal masses. He prescribed Miralax and told me to use Magnesia Citrate to clean myself out.
Since then, for about
2 weeks now, I've been taking Miralax once a day. I'm having bowel movements but they don't seem to be keeping up with intake. I'm trying to keep a diet pretty high in fiber like the doctor said, so I've been eating a lot of cereal, mashed potatoes, prune juice, ect. Once every 5 days I take a stimulant or a small enema to get things to 'free up'. Today, I developed a intermittent stabbing pain under my right ribs, as if my Liver was hurting me.
I don't have insurance, a regular doctor or any money/savings to get help. The ER doctor gave me a reference to a local GI doctor when I said I didn't have a doctor. He said "Now you have one" like it was a done deal. What a joke...I called the doctor and the lady on the phone tells me its $200 to walk in. Any tests or exams are more. After our bills are payed we have about
$500 to last the month. We can't spend all of our grocery money on a single doctor visit. I used to actively look for a job but now I spend hours in the bathroom and the rest of the time I feel miserable. I got in touch with the local Good Samaritan Clinic but they told me there is a 8 month waiting list to see a specialist.
I don't know what to do, all I know is I don't want to lose my colon. I miss waking up out of bed and feeling hungry though. I got this feeling like whats wrong with me may just be a simple fix, yet there has been a giant wall placed between me and the doctor that has my solution. If anyone has any knowledge of what might be wrong with me and who or where I should go see to get help, I would eternally be grateful for the advice.
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The worst part of all this is I probably brought it on myself. That makes me feel really terrible, seeing how many of you have problems like this and never did anything to warrant them. It's my fault I'm like this...I just hope someone can help me now despite me being such a loser. I'm sorry if my story offends any of you.
