Counting the hours

First I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that has been supportive to me on here. Tomorrow is the day... surgery day... J-Pouch day... d-day... I'm friggin scared. I feel like running for the hills. I feel so bad for everyone around me. I know most of them would take this from me and put it on themselves. Im hiding my emotions from them, it seems to help them deal especially my girlfriend. Sorry about this I'm dealing with a tremendous amount of emotions.

wow thats wierd. its like you got inside my mind and wrote it down. lol i keep a lot of my feelings from my mom and dad. they like to blame it on themselves and i know its making them miserable which in turn is making me miserable seeing them like that. thats why i love HW so much! i can come on here and whine and complain all i want without feeling guilty. so if you ever need anyone to listen im here and so isnt everyone else. you arent alone in this and good luck with your surgery! mines in 30 days and counting

Katrina

Good wishes and prayers coming your way! May you have a speedy, healthy recovery and begin to feel good soon.
By the way, don't try to shield it all from your loved ones. Let them be your strength for awhile. Your strength will make them stronger and give you a chance to heal.