this is a stupid thing for me to worry about

I know logically that this cant happen, but i keep having these dreams that somehow my bottom opens back up and everything reconnects and i start going the regular way again!

And am sick again and its sooo much worse than before.

Now i know thats stupid, and couldnt happen, but i just wake up from those dreams terrified and then i worry about it for hours afterwards!

Someone either tell me, thats ok to worry about, or tell me to get myself in a rubber room asap!

thanks cece!!! Although i still my need the rubber room, if for nothing else than my own safety, i just keep getting hurt, lol

andorable said...
Hey Summer, it would be nice to go the regular way again without the pain we used to have and just simply be normal again, but not going to happen that way unfortunately. I do understand the weird dreams tho I have had several since my surgery and wake up checking if my bag is still in place. Definately no rubber room yet otherwise I would have to admitt I need one too lol

Who says you're not normal????   You are a perfectly normal person who happens to have an ostomy!!  Don't EVER let yourself forget that!!! And, for what it's worth.....I just came back from the airport, and saw a lot of "normal" people I wouldn't change places with if my life depended on it. It's like a leper colony over there.

Post Edited (vette guy) : 5/4/2009 12:43:06 AM (GMT-6)

I have had my ostomy for 7 weeks and the other day I told my husband that I was trying to be a normal person again and he said" you are normal and that your old "normal" wasn't working. So accept that your new normal is much better." I feel better every day and am accepting it better every day. I still check it many times thru the night though and have dreams that I am passing gas the "old" way. Am liking the "new" way.

I was a runner all my life until a bi-lateral hip replacement in 2001. I still have dreams of running occasionally. It's usually dreams of running through a wooded hiking trail which I never did but in my dreams I always think wow I can run again.

andorable said...
Sorry vette guy I worded that wrong didnt mean to say we arent normal, in my defence Ive only been an ostomate for no more than 8 weeks and am still coming to terms with it. So please dont be so sensitive, sure didnt want to rub u the wrong way

Don't worry, your post didn't offend me. I just didn't want you to get down on yourself. I remember when I first got my ostomy 20 years ago.....man did my mind play tricks on me, and I allowed myself to get to a really dark place mentally. I didn't want that to happen to you, that's all!

Post Edited (vette guy) : 5/4/2009 4:53:39 PM (GMT-6)

Hey Summer,
I dream that I don't have an ostomy and I wake up and it is there. I had to go to the hospital 2
months ago because I had pain and my stoma was swollen and I had some kind of blockage and
I was terrified my crohn's had returned. the blood test were inconclusive and my C.T. was not
showing anything so I said the hell with it. I am not going back to the bad old days. We have all
been through really tough times and sometimes you get pts and once we have had our surgery
we think we are fine but you are also mourning your loss. At first you don't have time to do that
because you are dealing with your ostomy and later it starts to sink in that this is real and forever
and you have conflicting feelings about it. As long as you are sharing your feelings with us you are
in the right place and that is healthy. As far as needing a rubber room I think we all need one
when we have young children,spouses, inlaws and anyone else that we don't want to deal with all
the time! Just put on some music and dance!

fruitcake-that is soooo funny, whenever i get really upset, i either put on music and dance, or i put on music (ya'll dont laugh) and sit on the island in the kitchen, or on the floor below it and just cry and cry, but i have to sit there i tried sitting on the porch doing it today cause i was really reallly really mad about something and thought that might help, but it just didnt work the same, lol.
I never thought of those weird dreams as a coping mechanism, just figured they were my normal crazy dreams!

lol i havent ever done exactly that,but i do often forget its there, and find myself thinking i have something in my pocket cause my bag is really full!
And then i am like OMG i gotta go empty this thing, lol