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Posted 5/24/2011 10:56 AM (GMT 0)
Figured I would start a new post!  The other one was getting pretty long.  Yes, Nanci, my heart goes out to you.  I didn't feel the greatest yesterday, but I have had worst days also.  I am sure it is nothing like what you are going through right now. 

Hodaya, I think I am ready to get this surgery on the road now, yes, still anxious, but ready!!!! Lately, it has been really hard to get stool out b/c it seems like it gets impacted on my right side, takes forever to work, or I have to try again the next night, then I feel really cramping the next day! 

Went ahead and starting looking for some new jobs on the internet last night, which is on my mind, but not because of surgery.  However, I know it takes a long time to hear from people sometimes. 

Alibee, I wish you the best of luck on your small bowel.  Remember, that barium can hurt your tummy.  I was in pain that night, and the next day at work I didn't feel too good from not going potty plus barium. 

Nanci, hope all is well, and hope they figure out what is wrong!  Your in my prayers!!!

Posted 5/24/2011 5:54 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for starting the new thread hurtboy...the other one was getting pretty long!

Hodaya - I do have facebook! I just sent you a friend request, my name is Alisha :)
Posted 5/25/2011 5:30 PM (GMT 0)
Hurtboy-what type of prep do you have?

Alibee-How did the SBFT go?

Posted 5/25/2011 11:13 PM (GMT 0)
Alibee-hope your test went okay today!  Hope your small bowel is okay!

Mary-Well, for my prep next week, they are making me drink the gallon colonoscopy stuff.  I thought I should try to get a cleanout a couple days before hand and start early on my prep the day before because I know it will take forever to even do anything.  Also, I thought if I don't get a cleanout at least a couple days before hand there will be a lot stool in there, which will make it harder to get out.  Hodaya, do you have any suggestions?

Nanci-I sure hope you are doing okay!

I am really ready for next week now, surgery.  It is getting soo hard to get my stool out the past couple weeks.  Also, I am just ready to eat whatever I want and not feel bad.  Got laxatives to work today after cramping, and lots of stool in there.  Sometimes it amazes me how much stool can just accumulate from a few days.  Anyways, back to food, my co-workers were nice today, gave me a big card, said they would miss me, and got pizza.  Well, yes, I do like pizza, but I just never enjoy it anymore.  I was like, ummm, because everybody was waiting for me to get a piece first.  I ate a piece, but suffered the consequences all afternoon-indigestion, heartburn.  Plus, still cramped from laxatives, and now tonight, still indigestion, and you can hear the gurgle in my stomach from the gas just being trapped in there.  I can just feel it there on my left side wanted to come out, but can't.  Just gurgles back up, so I am just taking it easy tonight, put the heating pad on me.  I mean, I usually like to eat healthy, but I like indulge like everyone else in awhile.  Sometimes I do just give up and suffer the consequences, but this is just not the way it should be.  My cousin told me once that; yes, God gave us the gift to enjoy food, not feel bad.  Like I said, all of us should eat healthy though.

I know after surgery I will still have to watch my diet for awhile, but I truly believe it will be worth it in the end.  Yes, I am young, but I still have soo much life to live.  I am ready to eat and go to the bathroom like a normal person. 

Tormorrow is my last day now at work.  Closing down the department on Friday for the holiday weekend already.  At least I know my co-workers care about me and are going to miss me. 

Mary-good luck at the surgeon's tomorrow, and keep up posted!

Getting ready for all these nasty storms coming out way, lots of tornadoes!  Yikes! shocked

Posted 5/26/2011 12:39 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you, I need the luck. I bet you are excited. We have horrible storms here too. Keep safe!
Posted 5/26/2011 2:58 AM (GMT 0)
just a quick update:
I am still in here, enjoying my TPN- pretending its a milkshake.
I do have a partial obstruction and they should decide in the next couple of days on the plan of action. One bm - last night. Nothing fabulous but shldn't have so painful to pass liquid and the two daily/nightly suppositories.

more tomorrow.
Posted 5/26/2011 8:44 AM (GMT 0)
glad to hear from you Nanci. poor thing, it's been almost 2 weeks now. hope everything works out soon (((hugs)))
Posted 5/26/2011 1:16 PM (GMT 0)
Wow, Nanci, 2 weeks in the hospital!  I feel sooo bad for you!  I hope for the best! 
Posted 5/26/2011 2:20 PM (GMT 0)
Nanci you are a trooper!! I will say a prayer for you today. Just keep hanging in there...it is great you had a movement even if it wasn't a "Great" movement because when you are recovering after this kind of surgery, from what I have read, ANY movement down there is a good movement. Your body is in a lot of shock and is being stubborn, but eventually you will start to feel better. Hopefully they will decide SOON what to do to help speed up your healing.
Sending a big hug your way,

PS - Nanci, if you have an "address" at the hospital I would love to send you a card!
xoxo
Posted 5/27/2011 1:21 AM (GMT 0)
Alibee - Thanks for thinking about sending a card but the only thing I have nearby is the menu, which has been useless to me.  I'm at Maine Medical Center in Portland, ME.  That's all I have, except the room service # which is posted on the wall as a reminder that i don't need the #!!!! smhair

I have started drinking decaf herbal teas - nothing fancy, cranberry pomegranate ad peach are my faves so far.  Starting the other day cold drinks started causing pain so I let my beverages get warm (Cranberry juice cocktail mixed w/ice water).  If they don't taste great i won't gulp/guzzle them and risk even a more painful stomach. 

Ali - I just send a friend request to Hodaya because I couldn't find yours - is it under your whole name?

What about you Kyle?

Posted 5/27/2011 1:08 PM (GMT 0)
Nanci,

Read your post under Mary's result thread!  You poor thing!  I sure hope they get this situation fixed asap.  2 weeks in the hospital is a long time!  And yes, about a meal, my mom told me I should try and do at least one thing this holiday weekend.  Eat one of my favorite things, do something, before I have to go through my surgery because it will be a little while again before I feel like bouncing back.  I think I might deserve a glass of wine and chocolate.  lol, that is funny what you posted about chocolate.  I like my chocolate fix, too!  I am glad chocolate doesn't bother my tummy as long I don't over, over do on it.  Keep us posted on your condition!  On facebook, you find me under Kyle Jones.  I sent Hodaya a request last night, and I am now friends with Mary.  I will get on fb here shortly and see if I can find you!  Wishing you the best!  ((((((hugs))))))) 

Hodaya, how long was it till you starting passing gas after your colectomy?  I mean, I can't stand the pain now.  This morning, I had a bowl of cereal and cup of coffee, and I am trying to pass gas, and I just can't!  Just gurgles back up.  Just sitting here relaxing now with my heating pad trying to force it out, since I can relax this morning!  Oh hooray, just got some out, lol!  I really can't wait till I feel normal again!  Oh, almost forgot too, how long were you in the hospital?  I imagined I would be in there for at least a week. 

Post Edited (hurtboy) : 5/27/2011 7:24:00 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/27/2011 3:25 PM (GMT 0)
Nanci, i'm confused at how can they let you drink or eat (even liquids) by mouth if they suspect an obstruction? something here just doesn't seem the norm.. esp if they think you need more surgery..?? im totally lost here. poor thing, i hope things start to work out soon!!!! am so upset i won't be able to log in here in the next 24 hrs, but will be anxious till i'm able to, to see if there are any updates on you. worried about you and thinking of you a lot!

YAY Kyle!!!! glad you managed to make some air out lol.... well, for me, i had an ileus for the first 8 days post op and started passing gas after, i think, 10 days. so for about 10 days there was no passing gas. but not everyone is like me. everyone has a different recovery progress and i hope you don't get an ileus!!!! i hope you don't get ANY kind of complications and have a smooth recovery!!! i was in the hospital for 18 days.

i can't avoid saying that i'm so so worried about you Kyle. i obviously saw you pics on FB and man, you're way too skkiny... i know you said your surgeon plans on putting you on TPN, but still, i'm so worried about your weight. sorry if i'm too straight forward, don't mean to offend you in any way, just concerned.
Posted 5/27/2011 3:47 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Hodaya,  yeah, that is why I have been sooo concerned about myself, too.  Like I have mentioned before, in high school, I did struggle with a little with an eating disorder and have been pretty thin all my life, and then on top of that, struggled with constipation all my life.  I wish doctors would have listened to me a few years ago when I started complaining about trying to eat more and still being constipated, tummy hurting, and then when I took my lots of dulcolax, I felt better, but not b/c I just feel full of trapped air.  Maybe I wouldn't be in the situation I am in now.  Like, I let out some air earlier, but here I am still sitting here feeling like I need to let gas out, but can't.  I just don't see tooo many people on here complaining of that feeling.  I get tired of feeling distended and bloated alot when I eat.  So, that is why I have told doctors to get through my days at work, I eat breakfast, always, and then I try to stick what I know won't upset my stomach too much during the day just to get through it b/c my tummy hurts, don't go potty most the time during the week, bloated, distended, trapped air!  Then, most the time I just find I sorted pig out when I get home for the night. 

I got better in high school, but constipation, etc. never got better.  I really hoped removing the rest of my colon helps, and that I can not get soo constipated and feel soo full all the time, the trapped gas.  It is like truly, my colon is dead, just does not want to push anything forward.  Plus, the surgery I had done in February to remove the one kink made my condition worse!!!!!!  I know my parents are very worried about me!  As myself, everyone!  I just want to be better, eat normal, feel great everyday, and not have to worry!  So, yes, I am ready, but I am scared!  It is okay to be worried about me.  That is why I said maybe losing my job at this time might be a blessing in disguise.  To fully take this summer to heal and recover.  I truly hope for a smooth recovery!

Well, I do need to go here because the nurse did call me the other day, and I need to get some labs drawn.  Then, I was going to go ahead and draw my umemployment today! 

Post Edited (hurtboy) : 5/27/2011 9:55:39 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/28/2011 7:44 PM (GMT 0)
oh Kyle, i really hope everything works out best for you. thinking of you a lot. i'm just so worried about you. now that i've seen how low weight you are, i don't understand how the surgeon takes you to this kind of surgery like this. i think he should have put you on TPN for a while before surgery to make you stronger for the surgery. i'm no dr, but it seems like the most right thing to do. i hope im wrong. love and hugs your way!!!!
Posted 5/29/2011 2:52 AM (GMT 0)
Kyle, I am sure the doctors will know what to do for you - I don't think they would do the surgery on you if they didn't think you could get through it alright...so try not to worry too much. But do make sure if you aren't feeling well at ANY time, to let them know. Try to eat as much as you can before...junk food, healthy food, whatever you can eat. I know it's hard to eat a lot but it will help to get those extra calories in.

PS - I saw your ornaments and things in your facebook photos, they are great! You should sell them!

Nanci - so glad to see you on facebook, hope you are feeling better, I know you will update us when you can, no rush.
Posted 5/29/2011 11:29 AM (GMT 0)
I have not felt good the past couple days! I tried to take some laxatives Friday night, so I could try and enjoy my remaining days before prep day on Wednesday. No go besides little bird droplets yesterday! I just wanted to cry yesterday. I tried again last night, and I am hoping to do something this morning because I really want to hang out with some friends tonight.

Like I mentioned, I just don't think anyone took me seriously before about laxatives not always working, constipation all my life! not having a bm for several, several days, or only letting at little droplets if I could and this constant left sided bulge of air not expelling from me at first. Like my colon is dead!

I didn't even take laxatives till a few years ago, just went only like once a month or so till my mom was like that is prob. why your tummy hurts! Also, in 2009, I developed an ulcer! That was painful! My mom said several times when we went on family vacation at the end of week, she would try and use suppositories on me to get that stool out of me. I didn't go! lol, when I was little, embarrasing, but she was afraid to send me to school b/c I wasn't going to the bathroom. She was afraid I would explode and have accident after holding it several days like what usually happens!

As for my left sided pain, I didn't know what it was at first, and my mom said that sounds like air trapped in you even after going to the bathroom. I mean, my colon inertia has gotten soo bad that for the past 3 years or so, I have dealt with gas not always wanting to come, bloated somewhat even if I take a laxative or not. So, somedays, and I don't know how I got it let it get this bad; I just faced the fact to get through my day by snacking and feeling not as bloated as possible to get through my day. Then, I let my stomach go when I got home, and sit there all night crying!!! And the general surgeon that removed part of it in Feb. made me feel worse by creating this narrowed spot, which created more indigestion. Plus, I felt even more uncomfortable with the way things were rearranged. My new left sided pain more above at my spleen went down to the bottom. I really feel like wearing sweatpants everyday. How can my body feel so pewy but my belly feel sooo horrible??? My new surgeon, colo-rectal surgeon, said he would have removed the whole thing then. He said I would prob. be starting to live my life now!!!!

Nutritionally wise, the surgeon told me in Springfield obviously by your x-rays, etc. You are getting very constipated and feeling horrible!! My mom wondered the same thing about the TPN Hodaya; however, Ali, I think you right, too; the surgeon said it would prob. be easy to get in and out on my surgery. He thinks I will bounce back quickly, and he has removed a lot of colons. I hope for the same thing. And yes, no matter, how I feel, I am def. going to enjoy some of my favorite foods the next couple days! Tuesday night, I told my best friends and parents since I will be in Springfield already. Cook me dinner or yes, I will go out to eat no matter how I feel b/c Wednesday comes prep day!

My ornaments, I learned how to them in Disney. I worked and did a college internship there in 2003. Best experience of my life; made a lot of friends. Well, for the first time this past year at Christmas, I decided to try and sell them. They were a hit at work! I made around 1,000 bucks! Yeah!!!! Of course, a lot of people said I didn't charge too much, 5 dollars per ornament. I started doing the same thing for other holidays, hearts for valentine's, easter eggs, and now, I just put up some stars for 4th of July on fb yesterday uploaded from my phone. Keeps me busy. This year, I plan on joining a craft fair that the hospital my mom works to try and sell!!! =)

Nanci-great talking to you on fb the other night. Hope your sigmoidoscopy went okay yesterday!

Today, I need to get my computer fixed. Was looking at jobs yesterday, and boom, virus! Need that fixed so I can update you all when I am in the hospital. I am on my roomie's computer this morning!

Post Edited (hurtboy) : 5/29/2011 5:49:17 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 5/30/2011 8:11 AM (GMT 0)
Kyle, reading your posts is like reading about my own life before the colectomy. that's how i feel every time i read your posts. your condition started way back when you we're a kid, and i know what it's like when drs don't listen to you and don't take you seriously. they don't take constipation seriously enough. it's true that there's more awareness today and more drs specialize in motility issues, compared to like 10 yrs ago, but still, not enough. so it's not surprising your condition got so bad. mine too. and it's not our fault that we couldn't find the help we needed.

i hope i didn't offend you in any way, i was just concerened. i want you to finally feel good again. for keeps. all of you, Nanci, Mary and Alisha. i think you're a wonderful guy, Kyle, and deserve the best out of life!! my prayers are with you all.

Nanci, hope the scope went ok. thinkin of you.
Posted 5/30/2011 7:32 PM (GMT 0)
Hodaya, you are not offending me.  Since my CI has gotten soo bad, I have been very worried about my health for the past year as well.  It just makes me aggravated how some people I see daily still don't get what I go through.  I am tired, weak, and it really annoys me how I can't do simple things such as fart and poop.  I know my roomie tries to understand my condition sometimes, but other times, he is like suck it up, go out, deal with it.  Only if he knew! shakehead  And there has been plenty of times, too; I have tried to suck it up, and do things, but I feel sooo uncomfortable.  Then, I just can't wait till the end of day to sleep it off, and hopefully, start fresh the next day and not feel as bad!  I did finally get stool out of me yesterday morning, so I was happy about that.  However, here I am today and have not been able to pass an ounce of gas.  It feels stuck on my lower left abdomen.  No push, no action to get it out!  It is very uncomfortable. 

I want to be happy and healthy, be active, and be able to eat properly without suffereing consequences.  It is the way it should be.  And I count tell you how many times I tried IBS diets, an apple a day, other laxatives, before I settled on taking my several pills of dulcolax just to get some action!!!!  I didn't understand why I had this left sided pain!  I wish I could have all of you by my side sometimes to get a hug; people that truly know what it feels like.  I think that is why I get sooo (excuse my language) darn grouchy because other people don't get it!!!  I am tired of feeling like a lax junkie and feeling this way.  But, surgery in a few more days, and I got my computer fixed, so I can keep you guys updated! :-)   I think I deserve the best, too!  I deserve to live my life to the fullest; do things!  Work on my little ornaments! smilewinkgrin

I plan on leaving for Springfield tomorrow at some point.  Not sure what will be going on, but I know my bestie does not have internet access at her house, so I might not be on the internet Tuesday night and Wednesday. sad    So, everyone think of me prepping the day before and on Thursday, the big day.  Ready to get this deadly, diseased colon out of me!!!!

Nanci-I sure hope everything is going okay.  You have been in the hospital forever!!!!

Posted 5/30/2011 9:46 PM (GMT 0)
Dear hurt boy

I hope you have a successful surgery and recover soon. For me, I still hope this surgery can help me.

Take care

Smarty
Posted 5/31/2011 8:07 AM (GMT 0)
(((hugs))) your way Kyle. you can't suck it up when you feel the way you do. on top of the gutt pain, i know what you mean about weakness and feeling so tired all the time. gutts problems are exhausting. and it doesn't matter which diet you do whatsoever, even a liquid diet can cuz pain. it doesn't matter cuz the colon is not functioning, it's paralized, gas keeps building up constantly and the colon can't push nor the liquid food or the gas and that causes MAJOR pain!

i have no doubt this surgery will help you a lot. best of luck with the prep! everything will be ok, thinking of you :) and can't wait for your update. oh and i really enjoyed chating with you and Nanci on FB :) thinking of you both.
Posted 5/31/2011 5:47 PM (GMT 0)
Hi friends,
I hope you're all doing well. Kyle, your day is coming up soon, I am so excited for you.

I have my appointment with a surgeon tomorrow, the one my motility doctor referred me to. In the past month I have driven the 6 hours round trip to the hospital once a week, each time for another test. My motility doctor said those were the LAST tests I would need, and that by doing them before I met with the surgeon, I'd be able to walk in and he'd have all the information he needed. I SO hope she is right. I do not want any other tests. I have been waiting for what seems like a lifetime for an appointment like this, for someone to really take me seriously enough to even talk to me about this condition. It is so hard to find a doctor who even knows what colonic inertia is...even when I was having my tests done, and the techs asked why I was there - if I told them "colonic inertia" they would look at me like I had 2 heads. The only test I'm worried about is the gastric emptying study. It was emptying, but slowly, and I was there for 4 hours. Can a slow colon, make other things move slower as well? I am worried i've let this slow colon thing go on for so long that it is starting to affect me in other areas like my stomach. Thankfully it LOOKS like my small bowel is normal, unless they saw something weird when they were taking pictures and I guess I won't know about that until tomorrow.

Anyways, I have been in a TERRIBLE mood for the past week or so and I feel awful about it. I have been short with my family and I can tell there are days they would rather not be around me and I can't blame them. I have cried a lot, and I know it is because I am stressed out about this appointment, and I am just exhausted from feeling so bad for so long. My mom was sitting outside with me the other day and she said "I don't know...I know you are ready for the appointment but I am just having such a hard time with it"....and when I asked her what she meant she basically said that surgery seems like such a drastic thing, and she wonders if now that we know what is going on maybe I can "try more things first". I know she still thinks that there must be some way I can alter my diet or my "timing" as she calls it, and somehow feel better. But I keep trying to explain to her that this is SO far along and so much more in depth than that...and that if it were not a big deal they would not have even sent me to have the tests. I mean I even went to biofeedback which is basically physical therapy for going to the bathroom! What else is there to try?! It doesn't matter if I can push it out correctly, or if I eat certain foods, or change my timing...if my insides are not working the right way THAT is what the problem is, not what I am doing. That's what my motility doctor said but I think my mom still doubts it.

I think she knows all of this but does not want to believe that surgery is the answer because she is scared. The surgeon we are meeting with tomorrow is a colon & rectal surgeon and he is extremely good and has lots of credentials and awards and is raved about by patients and staff...but my mom thinks any surgeon will just tell a person to get surgery because that is what they do. But I tried telling her that a good surgeon won't do a surgery if he doesn't think it is the right thing to do. That is how I feel. I can wonder all the time if I am doing the right thing or if I should try this, or try that...but when it comes down to it I feel I've done everything I can and I need a doctors help now.

It is just so hard because I want to feel like I have my family on board with all of this, but right now it just seems like they are so against it, that if I did have surgery I would be so terrified of something going wrong because my family would just be waiting around to say "I told you you shouldn't have done it". Do any of you have any advice on how to make family members more comfortable with the idea of surgery? I am trying to think of ways to talk to my mom during our drive tomorrow that might help explain how I feel. If surgery will give me a chance at having a better life I want to do it. All I know is I can't keep on living like this every day. I cry every time I think about how much I am missing out on. I have no friends, no life, and every day revolves around just making it through the day, sitting on the couch with a heating pad, and going to bed. That is no life for me.

hugs to you all, cross your fingers for me tomorrow.
Posted 5/31/2011 6:09 PM (GMT 0)
Good luck tomorrow. I have a good feeling for you! As far as family, she is your mother that is what we do is worry. Is she coming with you tomorrow? Most people don't understand CI at all. I have heard other times to try prunes or drink water. Duh, I do this and it doesn't help. Have you had a heart to heart? All I can say is talk to her, ultimately she wants you to feel better but surgery does come with a lot of risks. Just make she is well informed and is aware of just exactly how miserable you are. Please keep us updated.
Posted 5/31/2011 6:38 PM (GMT 0)
oh Ali, honey, i'm so so sorry to hear your family are not supportive. it would have made things so much worse for me if my family wouldn't have been supportive of my surgery. my family was all for the surgery from the begining and they understood my condition perfectly well. they saw the way i struggled every day (i live with my mom). my sister lives in the U.S, but she comes to israel every summer and she and her 2 kids stay with us for 2 mons. she saw how i struggled for hours every morning in the bathroom. she saw how much in pain i was, how it didnt matter what i ate, nothing would move in there. the amounts of laxatives i had to take and still have poor results.

my neighbour is a refelexologist (sp?). she can diagnose things just by looking at your foot. i didn't tell her much. she saw it all by herself. she said "your colon is dead, not working. you're hardly eating, but yet you're full of air". i told her the air can't come out, cuz the colon is not able to push it out. she was astounded, but she saw for her self. everyone understood how bad i needed surgery. ppl at work not fully understood my condition, but they weren't living with me, see in their own eyes what i go through every day. my family saw me. they lived not only with me, but with my disease too.

you've been trying to explain it to your mother for so long now. i don't know what else can you say to her to make her understand. i remember suggesting her to read the total colectomy threads. if the motility dr explained it to her and she still doesn't understand, then i don't know what else will. maybe the surgeon tomorrow will be able to help her understand.

GOOD LUCK tomorrow!! i'll be thinking of you!!
Posted 6/1/2011 12:42 AM (GMT 0)
Staying at my bestie's parents instead the next couple days!  Can still get on the internet!  :-)   

Ali, I agree with Mary.  I think your mom is supportive; she just does not want to see you go through soo much pain.  Like Mary said, mom's worry.  I know my parents have worried about me a lot the past few years.  My mom really does not want to see me go through surgery, and I still have to explain to her several times this is the only way I am going to get better; actually feel like eating 10x better, not feel full of air and get constipated all the time.  Yes, if she hasn't read the colectomy threads, make her.  My mom has done more research on colon inertia to try and understand my condition!  I sure do wish the best at your surgeon's appt.

Hodaya, I am soo glad we have been able to talk.  Just when I read that post about you going to the reflexolgist (you said my post sound like yours) "you're hardly eating, but yet you're full of air."  Yes, because my colon is dead!!!!  I sooo agree!!! 

Well, I went ahead and got a good dinner in me tonight, since I know that I won't be able to eat real food for awhile.  I am not looking forward to prep day tomorrow (wonder how well it will work-last time I was afraid I wasn't even going to do anything and still wasn't clean out well enough-oh well, try the best I can), and I am sure ready for surgery Thursday.  Get it done and over with!  I am glad all you gals are wishing me the best of luck, and like I said, I have my laptop here, so I will try to update whenever I feel well enough.  ((((((hugs)))))))) 

Posted 6/1/2011 12:50 AM (GMT 0)
Oh, and Ali, I completely understand with the grouchiness!  There are plenty of times I feel like I have snapped on people lately, or I just totally isolate myself from people.  I know my best friends have been worried to death about me, and they feel like I haven't really, really talked to them in the past few years due to my CI getting really bad.  Or there are plenty of times, I have tried to put on a fake smile, and act happy like nothing is bothering me.  I know, it is hard; I rarely have a good day either, but when I do, I try to take advantage of it the best I can, but I always feel something in me.  Air, gas, something!  I know your day is coming soon!  I keep thinking about you!
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