Thing is with all of this (and Somedude's signature sums it up nicely) we don't know what we're going to get in life. Sometimes we don't have a choice at all. Sometimes we do. Sometimes we make bad decisions. Other times it all works out great. All we can do is deal with the here and now and try to make sense of what's happening. Wishing we could change the past doesn't help.
2 years ago I was training for an Ironman triathlon, had never been ill in my life. Then suddenly I had a perforated colon/peritonitis from undiagnosed diverticulitis which nearly killed me. I was 37 yrs old with 2 young boys and had no previous history at all. I'd been an elite athlete and sport scientist all my life and had an exemplary diet. This whole journey has taught me a lot and I have a different perspective on life these days.. I appreciate things in a different way. Someone asked me the other day if I regretted surgery.. well um.. I didn't have a choice actually.
Somedude, I really do understand your surgery fears and coming on here must feel like if you had surgery you'd just swap one set of problems for another. But one day you might not have a choice either. I sincerely hope it never comes to that for you. Remember that for every 1 person on here discussing their problems I reckon there are probably 100's in the World who are living wonderful healthy lives with stomas or pouches, who are far too busy living life to the full to bother with a forum! Surgery could well give you a better quality of life than you have now. Dont' dismiss it because of our experiences.
Rosemary.. I hope you can somehow get through this ongoing nightmare. I have no idea how or what the solution will be but I was researching having the stoma placed on the other side and re-sited completely. Is that something you could consider? Stay strong.
Anyway.. that's my little philosophical rant over with. I'm off for a bowl of carrot soup
will keep you posted with what my surgeon has to say on Friday. Frustrated doesn't even come close to how I'm feeling though.. ugh.