Ostomy nurse appt….nervous!! and excited!!

I am screaming inside. With excitement and nervousness and a million other feelings!! I meet with the ostomy nurse in 2 hours. For the first time. She's gonna figure out the stoma spot and teach me all the stuff I need to know. I am so nervous.

It's finally happening!! I can't even believe it. I have waited 36 years to have my bowel incontinence and other issues "fixed". Someone pinch me, I must be dreaming!!

Of course, surgery isn't for another month, but the appts leading up to it sure make everything more real. Saw the urogynecologist this morning to ask ?'s, she will do a hysterectomy and remove all of my "lady parts" (I have a prolapsed uterus/cervix that needs to be fixed and they figure it will be near impossible to ever get back in there if I had any issues, so removing the other "parts" is more of a preventative thing). I will be started on HRT immediately after surgery. I left there with a giant smile, just because I am finally going to get the medical help I need.

Thanks to everything people post on here and my ostomy mentor, I feel sorta educated going into this appt. I feel like there is a lot I don't know yet, but I know a whole lot more than I did just a few months ago. Very blessed to have found this place.

For my appt., I am even wearing real underwear!! No depends today--fingers crossed for no accidents!! But, I am bringing other pants to try on and stuff to be sure we get the right spot, so if I do have an accident, I'm ok I guess. Got my list of questions all set. Mom is coming with me, in case I forget something and to take notes. Otherwise, an hour after we leave, I'll have all sorts of questions about what she said--just b/c of being so overwhelmed and stuff, I'll never remember it all.

If anyone had told me a couple years ago that today I would be really excited about having a colostomy bag, I would've thought you were nuts! Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would WANT this, or even need this, but look at me now….I'm ready…let's do it!!

Thanks for listening. Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas!


Sunny.