Posted 5/25/2014 1:31 AM (GMT 0)
Good advice, AN, not disagreeing with you at all, wife and my BCBS nurse made the same suggestions, but not quite that easy, I have a hard enough time forcing a single tiny meal into me at the moment, let alone the thought of eating 4-6 times a day. I am working on it, trying to figure the best way to attack the problem while my doctor sorts out things.
Yesterday, wife/I went out, had mostly a proper meal out, lots of healthy protein plus a full deluxe loaded salad, and late night, ate 3 huge frosted walnut brownies, first major sweets I have had all year. Thought I would die later with the knife sharp cramps in my sides, and feeling like I was going to explode.
Interestingly, I never went to the bathroom, which is what normally happens.
So I weighed this morning, and with great disappointment, lost another 1 lb. and 6 oz. in the prior 24 hours. It seems hopeless at this point. Almost like my body is rejecting anything I eat.
I may try to increase drinking the Boost/Ensure junk to 3-4 bottles today in lieu of actually eating, but that would only be 1,000 calorie total if I remember right, and that's hoping it doesn't come right out my other end.
I think until I see this new internal/gastro doctor, hopefully this coming week, there may not be much of a positive change. The only good thing about this current disorder, is I feel zero discomfort in the not eating part.
At the car show I went to today, t hey had catered a major BBQ deal. The smell was amazing, but at no time, did I feel any sense of hunger of appetite. It still the oddest sensation. I have enjoyed, too much ,eating large quantities of food all of my adult life, so this is very strange phase, if that is what it is, I am going through.
And no, I don't feel remotely depressed about anything in my life. I take everything in stride. My PC, my pain, my fatigue. I don't sit around moping about anything. I don't have to worry about money, working, things like that. I do not believe I am secretly depressed or feeling blue.
Pretty content with my life- got great wife and kids and family, my faith has never been stronger, and I never worry about the future.
There has to be some organic or medical reason for whatever is going on. I will see what tomorrow brings.
D.